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2011-12-28T16:00:00.002+08:00

back in Singapore ..... had started work yesterday .... mentally not prepare for work , still got the holiday mood.... lucky this is a short week due to the xmas and new year ......
shall continue with my update of the Taiwan trip

Day 4 - Raining Day
Relaxing at home, bb went to workout in the gym in the afternoon while i play with dog and watch movie at home then our dinner at "Xian You" Steamboat restaurant..... not bad i like ...

Day 5 - Not a good weather too
Never go anywhere due to the weather. But we bought alot of goodies and food to bring back to Singapore. Hope my luggage would not be overweight.

Day 6
Taipei 101 (very nice) & Wu Fen Pu for shopping spree ....

Day 7 - Sunny and Windy day
Went to "Da Xi" and "Yong An Ai Qin Hai (Lovers Sea)". Both places are good for tourists! We climbed the long stair to reach the top which is the middle of the bridge ... very nice but too windy ... caused mi almost flew off hahahahaha ......

Day 8
小人國 for the whole day ..... very beautiful and have indoor and outdoor theme park...... played some ride and bb filmed 1 video on mi and her sis during a ride ...... so funny and ugly coz we are screaming thru out the ride ........
Going back is jam packed! Remember to go out of the park abit earlier, if not you will stuck in the long queue waiting for train ride to go back..... definitely will go again ......

Day 9
Shimen Reservoir (Nice Scenery) and Tai-Chung "Feng-Chia Night Market" (This night market is superb! Cheap! 3 hours also would not be able to finish the whole journey). Next time i will go earlier and have a night at the hotel nearby as the night market operator till 3am ....

Day 10
- Carrefour Shopping Centre ...... bb bought a PUMA running shoes! and i bought alot of snack back .....
- Zhongli SOGO .... just window shopping ..... as the stuff inside to so expensive not worth buying it ........

Day 11
Finally check in at Chinatrust Hotel.. Only 120 SGD per night.. But it looks like 5 Star Hotel with VIP treatment ..... after checking in .... we rest awhile then when around shopping ..... i bought a hat ....... then we try out the gym service at the hotel! and the also wash our clothes hahah It's good to have some workout after food and more food inside my stomach ... hopefully can reduce some weight ....

Day 12 - Visit bb's Grandma house, lunch treat by relative .... the chicken is nice and the pork intestine hahahaha ......
Dinner at Grandma house ...... gugu cooked the drunk chicken ... she used 3 big bottle of beer to cook ...... This time bb never drunk! but instead i'm drunk due to the soup ! LOL.....

Day 13 - Taking Taiwan HSR( High spreed Rail) to Zuoying (Kaohsiung)
Visited
1) Lian Ci
2) Take ferry to Qijin .... we ride 4 riders bike around the island and stopped at few shops where we bought some gifts and a couple t-shirts
3) Shopping at Shinkuchan... bought 2 pair of sunglasses( one for my sis) ... S$2 each only .....
4) Night time at Liouhe Tourist Night Market .... the fish soup very nice ... ate quite a number of food ......
5) Lastly, taking a walk at "Huang Jin Ai He" .... eat again .... hahaha the food in Taiwan is really nice compare to Singapore ......
All thanks to bb's relative! i had alot of fun in Taiwan

Day 14 - Moved back to bb's sis house
Packing plus last minute shopping
Will be heading back to Singapore the next day...... bb miss his sister! and his nephew wanted to take his PSP and i disturb him that he need to trade his dog( i like the dog) with mi ... he agreed hahahaha ....
in the end bb was not comfortable to give him .... hahaha

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the whole trip was fun but just the weather too cold which made mi abit sick .......
will be going again next year around Oct ...... heeee

2011-12-14T16:11:00.003+08:00

AT TAIWAN now ..... enjoying myself ..... so shiok ..... today is the 4th day at Taiwan ....
Staying at bb's sis house .... saved quite alot money .... one night at the hotel will cost us S$120 ...... and we will be staying in Taiwan for 2 weeks ... will be back in Singapore for Xmas .....
We manage to reach Taiwan on Sunday night around 7 plus .... then Jie fu fetch us from Airport then after changed he brought us walk around the night market and bought us dinner

Day 1 in Taiwan - Zhongli Night Market
1) Chou Dou Fu ( only bb eat, i cant take the smell)
2) Lu Rou Fan ( not bad, is bb favourite dish)
3) Zhen zhu nai cha ( nice , so different from Singapore bubble tea)
4) Ji Pai Mian ( nice, i like it)
5) Hao Jian ( hmm , i prefer Singapore style)

Day 2 in Taiwan
Lunch at some restaurant with bb relative ..... 9 ppl eat around 10 to 12 dishes with 6 bottles of beer ... just cost S$125 ..... so cheap .... oh ya and i went to bb house ... which he stayed when he is young ........ he continue to drink with his uncle till he drop dead ... hahaha he was drunk ... of coz will drunk la .... he drank 2 bottles of beer and then hard liquor ..... hahaha ... forgot to film down the drunk scene of him ..... hahahahahaha ...... after that jie fu brought us back and rest ... all of us was so tired and fall asleep till night time ... we went night market for our dinner ...
1)Da Chang Mian Xian ( not bad , heee)
2)Cha ji Pai ( this stall not that good)
3) Xian Shu Ji ( not bad , i like )
4) Re Xian Cao = Warm grassjelly ( nice , i love it )

Day 3 in Taiwan
Woke up late and jie fu bought us breakfast .... after we had done with our wash up .... we can directly have our dinner ... as jie fu had brought it for us......
1) Tang Bao ( really nice, will love it and don't mind consume it every morning)
2) Gong Wan Tang - lunch
3) You Ji - Lunch
4) Fried noodle - lunch
Lunch not bad ... as we had it at Nei Wan where we had a kart ride and some fun over there ... photo will be up once i'm back .......
5) Lu Rou Fan for dinner ...
not bad ... heee ... jie fu know is bb favourite so he bought for him
6) Ou-ah mee sua .... hahaha i bought the mee sua to eat .... is better that Singapore one ... nice

will continue to blog when i'm free again .....

2011-12-09T13:58:00.002+08:00

excited to the max .... don not my heart can take it mah ... heeee ....... ending work in 4 hr more....
and i will meet bb for dinner .....

tml will be the last preparation before i set off to Taiwan .... so long nv take flight le ..... finally got the chance and this is not a budget flight ....... happy happy ...... i will be away for 2 weeks to Taiwan ..... blog will be dead again ..... nvm it will be flooded with photo and caption and many more after I'm back from Taiwan.

Cant wait to end work ..... I'm in holiday mood le ..... cant focus at work .....
lucky boss also going oversea ... she also having holiday mood ...... so not much expectation from me today .......

by the time i finish blogging ..... it will be 3.5 hr more to end work ......

2011-12-08T15:30:00.002+08:00

woo lala ... going Taiwan in few days time .... happy to the max .... hahaha .... don't know how to pack my bag .... waiting for bb to help .... alot of my colleagues told me to go here and there when i'm at Taiwan ... heee .... wonder bb will bring me there or not.

today is very sinful .. had 3 different type of cakes ..... but is super yummy ...... sure fat one. my colleague told me to take note of my weight from the day one i joined and compare with 3 months later. He claimed that sure 100% gain weight. Hahaha so funny, he said almost all of them gain weight and another one said after joined their dept, you will never able to lose weight or have good diet. hahahaha ... so true, firstly is catering tasting and now is 3 cakes in a day.

hope i wont become a big fat gal in 3 months later.
looking forwards to my trip.

2011-12-06T13:26:00.003+08:00

swee ... finally finish my exam le .... no need busy here and there liao ......
at new workplace heee .... more relax can surf net and snacking .... so excited on my Taiwan trip.

Coming Sunday I will be flying to Taiwan for 2 weeks, so shiok first time to Taiwan and I will be staying there for 2 whole weeks. Hope this Sunday faster come..... heeee

After a long wait, finally I'm transferred to other dept, not bad or maybe I'm still too new or what, bosses treat me quite good, and colleagues are helpful. I'm the youngest in the dept and almost everyone is married, and they keep talking "yellow" joke which most of it I cant catch it hahahahaha. AND i love to attend the launching of new movie which mean i have a pair of FREE movie tickets, it always come in pair, I'm able to enjoy the movie before it showing to the public.

Consider lucky to join the dept, going to stay on for another 2 years to try out. If not Aretha will say the CC not hope, all dept don't want as no one stay long. Heeee, I will prove that I'm special and have the ability to move on.

OMG ... time for me to go on diet, joined new dept and we had been eating non-stop since the day I joined. Other dept and clients had been giving us a lot of food such as Lau Po Bin, cake, nuts and fried stuff. AND the main cause of getting fat is FOOD TASTING, I had tasted quite a number of catering almost every week and it is always after lunch and no pre-empt given.

Now is time for me to re-design my blog and get it life again. However, no idea right now and need to brainstorm for a moment.

2011-05-27T11:29:00.003+08:00

hmmm .... confuse confuse and confuse ..........
got 2 offers on hand ..... will u guys look for a long term jobs and good benefits but pay not good or a short term (1 year contract) with no benefits but pay good jobs....

cant make up my mind ....... i look at money first ... but advise from others is look at the overall ..... but how to ......

really tired of thinking ... why cant they just merge the 2 offers together ......

going to discuss with mum and bb ..... see what they view .......
Monday is the day i need to get back to them

2011-03-29T09:45:00.004+08:00

working was not smooth for mi ..... was kind of stress ..... during work don feel like talking ...... not in the mood of chatting with ppl ..... just find others so noise when they talk ard mi .... i still prefer a quiet and peaceful seat ....... maybe miss bb too much le .....

Day 3 without bb

working was damn stress ...... work till 6.30pm ....... cases by cases need to write ..... finally finish it by 6.30pm....... meet up with beng leong at cp for dinner ..... as usual he is late for 1 hr ....... make it almost faint of hunger ...... 9 plus he walk mi home ..... hahaha i just go home without waiting bus for him ... miss bb alot ..... but still excited on the gift he got for mi and photo he took at taiwan ...... and my instant noodle he gotten for mi ...... he sent few mms to mi ... hahaha bill ex ex wor ...... excited on the gifts ......

Day 4 without bb

went work with a heavy heart ....... got a feeling of giving up ..... waiting for bb to be back tml ..... cant wait for him to be back ..... i'm too bored and tired ...... wanna lie on his shoulder waiting for bb gift hahahaha ......... without bb .... i suffer insomnia ........ currently so tired .... life got to move on .....

2011-03-27T18:39:00.002+08:00

boring weekend without bb ....... feel so empty and lost ..... doesnt know what i wanna do ...

Day 1 without bb

had a little run away from town ..... a short trip to JB ....... doesn't feel easy without bb ..... went alittle further out of City Square ....... took cab from city square to Juso ..... during the journal don feel easy kind of feel insecure.

all over the trip is a new experience .... tried out new stuff .... hope next time bb is around .....

heee ... i bought some snack and comic .... =p hope bb wont scold mi ....

Day 2 without bb

Stay at home thru out the day ...... feel so empty ....... switched on my pc but no mood to do my assignment ...... read comic and watch anime thru out the whole day ......

so excited when bb called mi in the afternoon and sending mi pic of stuff he gotten for mi =p ....

counting down for the days he returned to my side ......

exam coming ...... not in the serious mood of study ........

don wanna fail my module .... i wanna grad by next year de .....

reaching for my goals

2011-02-21T13:42:00.002+08:00

hoho .... cny finally over ..... collected nearly 300 buck of ang bao ........... and my Vday .. i got my very first longchamp bag .... love it...... hahahaha

my planned china trip had to drop off as it fall near to my exam .... bb was kind enough to drop the plan too and join mi in Singapore instead of travelling to china with his family ......

bb's sis is getting married ......... they spent almost 80k lei ...... wedding dinner , ROM , photoshoot , wedding gowns , rings and etc .......... bb's sis told us to save more now for future hahahahah ........ and they not intending to do the photoshoot in sg as sg nth much and not special le ... so she going to aust lei ..... so good ........

seeing ppl around mi getting married ..... haha when will be my turn ? 5 year later ... hee that my planning ..... i wanted a career first and is able to support a family ..... i don want ppl to think that i rely on my husband ..... and i also don wanna give my husband to feel that i'm his burden ...... i can support myself too ........ with 2 parties having a stable career and income ........... we will be able to afford a car or house in no time .... heee just like my bro got a flat le ......

during this 5 years ..... we can plan to study or finding our idea career ........... then i can buy watever stuff that i long for it ......

1 more year ..... i can wear my " shi fang mao" to take photo le ..... heee saving money to go aust for my gradation( if possible) ..... heee

Jia you

2011-02-08T12:15:00.002+08:00

hooo hooo CNY ...... eat and eat then jiu turn fat fat liao ..... hahahaha this year as usual ... go xiao yi house pai nian ....... this year ang bao money lesser than last year hahaha don noe why .... anyway still got 1 more week to collect ang bao ......

bb's gu gu give mi $50 ang bao lei ..... so shiok .... they still bring mi to eat 2 restuarant in a day .... eat till i drop .... hahahahaha

V.day coming .... bb ask mi wat i want .... i say Long Champ bag ... then he replied Ok.... hahah so nice ...... but i don noe wat to get for him .....

anyway our 2nd anniversary will be at a chalet .... heee ..... but then don noe got wat events .... heee

study abit tired liao ..... hmmm heard alot of rumours about that blur gal ...... should i tell her or not .... hmmm but my fren say she need to learn and clean the mess on her own ...... hai ..... don noe lei.....

2011-01-04T13:23:00.002+08:00

a brand new year 2011 .... wohoo .......
skool term is going to be the last year ..... better study hard hard .......... don wanna waste money ...... as i wanna go oversea .... eg taiwan , bbk, Hk and china ............ but BB going to scottland in June .... cant go ......... sadded

xmas was fun ...... enjoy taking presentie ........ heee ..... new year I ATE hotel buffet so shiok ....... then i treat BB eat ........ heeee

looking forward for my chinese new year ..... so i can take my ang bao money and the $260 capital land voucher to buy my Long Champ bag ......... heeeee.......

should i take up part time job ... so as to earn more money to go oversea ........ heeee

thinking ....
thinking ............
thinking .....................

2010-08-27T13:32:00.003+08:00

finally ........ this is the last week of OT .... i will be back to my favorite 5 days work week ....... heeee

It so long since i can rest in the weekend .......... and bb bringing me for holiday in sept (genting) ... woooo ....... i still considering whether to go bbk with jun xiang or not ............ scary place hahahahaha .....

After paying all the school fee ( i mean settled) ......... i feel like buying alot stuff to pamper myself ........ heee and i can start to list down wat i want ..... =p

Alick offer mi a job ... 2.1k ....... but don noe to stay here or to leave ........ i worry i cant adapt to new environment ....... now adaption well and new job scope .........

got some token from the management for the appreciation of the hardwork and in_______ in sept .......... hope is the amount that i requested ........ =p less than 2 year got 2 times in_______

life was tiring ....... was thinking to extend my studies ......... from 2 modules to 1 module per sem so that i wont so tired and can enjoy at the same time .......... but i haven make up my mind ........ should i or not ........... can someone enlighten mi

health wasnt good nowadays ......... been falling sick recently .......... feel like doing a whole body checkup but don noe how sia ........... and i WANTED to go DENTIST for so long ......... any recommendation ............ =p

Will update most of the pic soon ................. =p

2010-08-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

another month passed ............. getting more sick on my life ........ a very routine life i have ........

things doesnt go smoothy as i thought even after telling bb wat i'm suffering ............. just felt that no one support mi ............. i believe that either he had forgotten wat i'm suffering or else he don believe on it ............ that sickening things had make mi lost my patience, temper even myself .........

ear infection is getting better ........ now only left that sickening thingy .............. still on mediation ......... but still time i missed the time or i can say i don feel like eating it ..............

nowadays seldom talk to bb ............. cause i know as long as i don talk so much ..... nth will happen ...... and it true ........

i'm broke ............ cant go bbk with the rest ........... and the malaysia trip got to cancel off ....... my unlimted flow of seafood gone ........ need to wait till next year ............. and i was thinking whether to drop off my taiwan trip or not which i had been waiting for years .........

alots thing in my mind ............

i'm tired in everything .......... feel like giving up ............

no support from anyone .......

i'm on a heavy debt ........... now even my meal and transports is a problem as i can only choose 1 to survive ........... i only enough for 1 ............ bank account cant go negative ............

1 whole week i will be at home then the rest 3 week see wat i can do ba ............ i never let bb and mum know ........... anyway just broke after paying school fee ............... borrow abit from bb so cant ask anymore from him le .........

slp early and tml wake up see will pick any money from the street or not ba .....

2010-07-28T22:14:00.003+08:00

don know what had happened to mi ............. felt that i had changed alot ...............

temper , character, patience ........... all changed ............. in simple i had changed to another person ......

i felt that i much petty as before and i get jealous for no reason ........

reflecting on myself ............ tears flow down for no reason .............. just feel so hurt ............. felt that no one understand mi and no one care for mi ...............

i felt that i'm working alone and living alone in my own world .............

To be a TL is not easy ...... to be the "bad" and "fierce" TL is more difficult ........ got no support from peer and got to face "both side" remark .............. no one appreciate the back-end support and no one recognize ur hardship and ability ............

was thinking to leave everything behind or to change my role off ............. just felt that i'm still not capable to be a TL ..........

i need to learn to accept and learn from other ............. i know i'm not the best but yet i cant accept my junior to be more capable than mi ...........

feel like changing working environment to find back myself ........ i know i think too highly about myself whereas i'm just nothing .........

bb getter more frustrated on mi ........ both of us losing temper and patience on each other ......... better don talk too much or else nth good happen ............ nowadays accompany mi to have meal de not my bb ........

exam coming ................ going to study hard hard ......... need to put in more effort on my study ......

hope i can better ..........

2010-06-18T11:35:00.002+08:00

have been working for straight 7 days ..... super tired .........

I'm on 5 days work week base but due to OT ...... i had been working non-stop just to earn few hundreds dollars ....... really tired ............ studies isn't easy to scope when u are busy at work ........

current workload reduce ....... as I'm helping the new line for the time been ....... abit stress taking the new line as no one have the knowlegde ......... my hearts beating so fast when i'm on the ready mode for the line ....... anyway so far nth much happen ........

tml will be going to escape theme park ....... bb got free tickets ....... nowadays hardly talk to bb ...... soon there will be a distance within us

so tired ....... studying and working at the same time ..........

2010-05-22T16:31:00.002+08:00

have you ever experience or think of

working alone in the office
waking up in the morning no one at home
coming home from work / school but no one at home
no where to go after work
no one to eat with when hungry
no one reply sms when u send out
no one to talk to when trouble
no one to go out with when bored
no one to wipe ur tears when it flow down
no one to share burden with
no shoulder to lean on when taking bus / train
no one help u when u fall
no one believe in u

felt so tired ............
really tired le ................
am i demanding ...................
am i unreasonable ......................

i know i'm hot temper and also short temper ..........
but no one understand what caused mi this ways
no one in my life truely understand mi
am i that difficult to get along with ..............

till date no one understand mi
no one is able to read my mind
i don like to say thing out and i also don know how to say ........ no one will know what i'm thinking ........ in another word no one know mi

2010-05-09T23:07:00.002+08:00

everyone will change when time pass ...........

i'm one of it ........ i can sense my character had changed and i had forgotten what am i use to be .....

changed to a better one or getting worse ........... i don know .........

better ?

worse ?

i guess i turning into a lousy person soon ..............

a person that had bad temper, mood swings and attitude

these are some of the comment i received

i know i get angry easily for don know what reason .............

i got no patience at all

i got pissed when things don go smoothly

i got mood swings

i give attitude for no reason

i blame all the people except myself

i give all shit reason to cover my shit

just wanna calm myself down .......... give mi some peace ........... i don know what had happened to mi that i had changed .............

maybe stress ...... from school ? from work ? from family ?

i don know .............

management had decided to offer mi what i want

with effect May there is an increment and also 5 days work week for mi

as long as if i'm helping out during weekend i will be consider working under OT rate ........

just feel like taking a break from everything

perhaps separate with everyone for a time been

guess that the best ways

thinking what the best ways ............ feel like going out alone to relax ...... off the phone for the whole day

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enjoy the peace alone

miss my single-hood life style

2010-05-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

thx everyone for the bday wishes and gift

enjoy myself ............. even thought i have to work on my bday

from emily ....

thx gal .... =p

from Jo

thx .... thx for remembering my bday

from my best partner cum bro in work

hahaha thx for ur cute presents

and i did use ur big pen during work ..... heeee

from jiaxin

thx for ur gift from Hong Kong

and thx ying wee for the dinner at vivo city

good luck for ur trip

and thx bb for the present ......

he paid half of the price for my lappy and brought mi to eat crab

thx alot ... it is the best present

thx everyone appreciate it

2010-04-19T20:37:00.001+08:00

so tired ........ nowadays hardly able to sleep early ..........
u will nv see mi home before the clock strike at 10.30pm for every weekday .........
working from 8.30am to 9 pm was to tiring .......... haha I'm back to the workaholic life style again
money is another issue and just trying to kill my time too ........ bb not free to accompany mi most of the time ......... sometimes even more than a week nv meet up ..........

nowadays felt that he is giving mi cold shoulder ........ maybe due to his family issue ...... and he will be staying at my house with us till his family issue gets better .......... mum had agree with it ........ thanks mum

feel like resting at home sometimes rather than work till so late ........ just like now ........ i'm blogging in my office...........

happy that if renew contract or next month onward i do not require to work weekend anymore hooooo ................ and they will revise my pay ( not confirm yet will had a meet up with mi again ) only if i renew .......... but i need to able to take up that position ....... hmmm let mi reconsider first

hmmm now should relax and not think so much ......... go steps by steps ba ....... see what will happen next ...........

had been working non-stop till negect my blog ........ and i'm yet to complete the MLXC blog skins ... aiyoyo lazy gal ........ i shall start to do again heee ........ now having 2 week school break but i'm working till 9pm everyday ......... no different in reaching home ..........

anyway .......... bday coming .......... ah yong bought mi something from hongkong .......... so excited wonder is for my bday or as a gift .......... he so sweet last time go bbk bought mi a backpack say better for my school ........ heee wonder wat he will get for mi this time ......... don noe ah xin will get mi thing mah ...... hee waiting for him to be back tml

hai .... had rest for quite sometimes ...... need to start my work again .......
stat here i come ............

2010-03-04T14:46:00.004+08:00

yest was our 1 year anniversary .... bb stay over at my place on the eve as he working morning the next day ....... bb fetch mi home from school and we eat at the road side ........ wasnt happy with his work schedule but like no choice need to accept .......

boss not around today ....... felt abit relax and i had completed my stuff fast too ........ as for today time, it seem to pass slow ............ tired and bored ............

feeling so empty now ...............

HP so quiet ........ msn so peace ..........

minds have alot things ..........

there is no ending for mi ....... tired ..........

maybe i should voice out and be a normal ppl ....... so i will not face mental stress

is always mi been blame and no one understand how i feel ......... tears is at the corner of my eyes yet no one realise and understand .........

gossiping hurts more ...............

bb asked mi leave ......... should i or not .............. wait till may then decide ..... or should i search first .........

someone enlighten mi pls ............

2010-02-10T11:43:00.002+08:00

CNY is just less than a week .........

yet i still not ready for it .........

shoe , bag and snacks ......... all not yet done ...........

and a 2nd hand sofa coming to my house soon ........... is a gift from bb .....

this sofa that hurt alot alot really alot

2010-02-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

hurt ..........
broken ..........
GONE .................

2010-02-08T10:18:00.002+08:00

CNY coming .......
money money ......... $ $ come and go easily during this period ............

earning isnt easy ............ OT OT OT ........

OT here i come .......... OT will be ending around April and May ...... which mean contract ending ....... i still hesitate to accept the offer or find other challenge ............

hmmm .......... i could say life isnt easy for mi ......... i'm moving on even i feel like giving up ......... i'm trying my very best

just feel that times is always not enough ............

wanted to have my own time but i'm like always busy here and there

CNY coming VDay fall on the same day ........ heee .............

my Vday given to mummy liao .........

no money buy anything for my bb ......

2010-01-24T20:20:00.010+08:00

yoz ..... it been so long i nv blog
alot things start to change when time passed ...... even ppl start to change

i admit i, myself changed too ....... ti a better or worse ........ i don know
i just know i'm really tired ..........
tired of the life i'm have

i like to enjoy and have my own time ...........
but i'm too packed .........
previously have 2 jobs ......... but due to tiredness and bb currently last week of stay in
so decided to just stay on for 1 .... hee ....... but i'm still tired ........
money always not enough .............

anyway i passed both exam for last sem ..... lucky wor ...... heard that there are more than 20% ppl fail that why there are sub-paper .... but lucky i manage to pass ...........

these few month did enjoy abit ...... thx to bb ...........

firstly i got few pairs of ticket to countdown party @ The Float
passed some to huili and partner and also bryan

Thx bb for accompany mi to countdown and bb should thx mi for getting the tickets to see his favorite Taiwan Big Mouth

and thx bb for accompany mi to malaysia for 1 day

went with SPH fren and colleague plus bb

after work we took bus in .....

thx for looking after mi ar ...

malaysia trip was a great experience and fun

the best part is the seafood feast

i love it (^-^)

went to jennifer's daughter wedding

it more like SPH gathering

enjoy the fun , joke and dinner

eat till damn full =p

lastly the best part is BB fetch mi home (^-^)

ah yong ah yong this time i send u le wor

thx BB ...

ps auntie nag abit (~_~)

2009-12-26T23:16:00.006+08:00

MERRY XMAS

this year Xmas ...... enjoyed myself .........

firstly is with some frens and colleagues at chalet ..........
having steamboat and BBQ ...... first time trying steamboat at chalet ...... not bad within the buget ......... heee ............

receive few presents ..... heee

but feel abit sad i cant give anything to them ........ due to too tight .........

secondly spend my day with BB .... hehe .......
love the time tgt ...........
so relax and carefree ....... heee

my favourite present and biggest present ........

2009-10-23T12:04:00.000+08:00

we are just too different

2009-10-22T12:07:00.005+08:00

no mood ........

have been damn tired and tend up this few month ........

money is always not enough for mi ......
family need money....
i need money for transport, meal , bill, school fee .......

so much thing need money .......
my pay wasnt that high to meet the min requirement of my need ..........
ppl may think i greedy for money ........

i could just say YES i need money .........

if u don understand my situation ... just don comment .........
as i know u cant bother to know wat i'm facing .........
so shut up and move on with ur life ........

i nv complain to anyone regarding my situation exclude my bb .......
so no one will understand .......

recently .....
i took a another part time job .......
it will be very tiring to cope with all this ........

now everyday ...... without the clock striking at 10.30pm u wont be able to see mi at home ........

everyday ......... every night ..........
working and working non stop .........
even for the night that i'm having lesson ..........
i will be working as usual in the day .......
if those night without lesson .......
u will still find mi busy working ..........

working and working for the entire life .........
when will be my life getting better ........
2 year down the road or 10 year .........
only god know .........

i'm always looking in the bright side .......
as long as i finish my study
i will have a better life and a lesser burden for mi to carry .....
i will keep this in my mind .....
my target is to get a better life when i turn 26

i will get what i want and work into my target .......

jia you

2009-10-05T14:13:00.003+08:00

你说的话在我心中生了根

爱得很深所以心很疼

记忆在我的心中翻滚

是不是每一个人

都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍

我能感觉另外一个人

我等等笑容换成泪痕

爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份

只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺

我忘了这是第几次

一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开也看不见未来

难道这种不完美

才是爱情真实的样子

太多疑问知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份

只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺

我忘了这是第几次

一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开也看不见未来

难道这种不完美

才是爱情真实的样子

2009-10-04T21:01:00.003+08:00

..... weekend is always past faster than weekday ......... becoz weekday have more days than weekend ??

i doubt that the reason ...........

this weekend ......... i don enjoy it ..........
thing isn't the same any more .........
he has his life while i have mine ............
thinking and expectation are so different in all ways .............

the times spend tgt are lesser and lesser .....
the distance of us is getting bigger and bigger ................

wanted to spend more time but it seem that is so much different from last time ......

he requested mi to be more understanding ............

when he requested mi this ........... do he know how heavy the word can be .................
why i chose to sleep first and ignore his soccer match .........
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i know he dote mi when i requested stuff .......... thanks for the meal that i requested ................
but .......... beside the meal that we having tgt ............. nothing else brighten my mood ..............

anyway i have no confident le ............

2009-09-24T16:13:00.004+08:00

hai .........

shhhh ...........

accidently knew something but if he/she/it do not wish to say ......... i shall shhhhhhh.......
he/she/it do not know or realise that i had already knew and sense something fishy ...........

don you know that if you lie 1 time ....... u need to lie 100 times to cover up the 1st lie .........

therefore there is some leak hole in between ........ which make u in a disadvantage position.

maybe he/she/it felt uncomfortable to say out ....... haha i respect it ...... haha but i find it no point to lie to everyone ..........

haha i know it is none of my business ..... but i just felt uncomfortable for all those lie ...........

if he/she/it do not wish anyone to know ....... just make sure ur lie is prefectly covered .......

used to believed that everything is misunderstanding ....... but i realise i'm the one misunderstood the whole situation .........

nvm .........

i shall move on and keep shhhhh still he/she/it decide or feel comfortable to voice out

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2009-09-17T10:42:00.002+08:00

gal ar gal ........... always have trouble .................. never ending ...............

一山未停一山又起

我为什么总是心酸酸，有说不出的酸甜苦辣。
人生让我真的喘不过气来，有时还会失去控制，大哭大闹

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我们出现了问题，没两三天我们又吵架
又怕又担心又心痛，不知所错

不想伤害他但是还是发生了
我知道我很嘛凡让他很头痛，
但是我从来没有要和他吵架，
但他认为我是找吵架的。

我真的不知道要做什么才对。

2009-09-14T18:08:00.003+08:00

been moody and emo almost all days ..........

tired and sick almost at all time

feel like doing sometime i like ....... but ......... time is always not enough ........... wanted to rot at home whole day ........... but don wanna take leave to rest ..........

just looking forward for my long weekend ........... shopping to relieve my stress or burden ..........

haha ppl will be wondering wat stress i'm facing as my work load wasn't that heavy ..........

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mentally stress with alot stuff ............
gals stuff , work stuff , school stuff , money stuff ............. so much thing in my mind

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2009-09-04T08:51:00.006+08:00

I'm so tired .................

feel like saying good night every day and night and every moment...............

it seem that i always not enough sleep .......... even thou i slept the whole night.........

my body aching is getting serious i got a feeling my old injury from the backbone is coming back ...... poor gal ..........

haha finally blog over at the workplace ........... too tired to work therefore do something else before i fall asleep ..........

this few month will be tight ......... too many ppl Bday and helping mum with alot of payment ......... burden loading up to my shoulder ..............

,br>sometimes hearing ppl around complainting they are tight and how poor they are and so on ......... but after hearing ........... i felt that if i'm them ........ i can go thru smoothly........ but what if they are in my shoe ......... how will they feel ............ and how they go thru in this situation..........

I'm so curious if they are in my position ....... how are they going to react ............

Sometime had a very bad feeling ......... i know it was bad to have the feeling ......... i felt that they are too dependent on their parents .........

hai ...... i know i can't compare ......... i will tried my very best to survive ......... and i had confident that i can do it .............

only 1 thing i can't do ........... my body getting weaker and weaker .......... even my temperaure drop........... have been taking temperature check over at workplace ........ the highest degree i have is 35.1 ........... isn't it too low for normal ppl .........

school start this week .......... all i can say is JIA YOU JIA YOU ......... haha i know is tiring .......

AND ....

BB had start work le ............ so he will be busy most of the time ........... and i must to independent .............

wish i had a good day today and everyday and every night and every moment

2009-05-01T14:36:00.012+08:00

Malaysia trip ....

And

My Birthday presents ....... oops ...... haha not all presents is up ......
I still have bags and dress not in the pic ..... =p thz everyone for the presents .....

2009-04-11T09:03:00.003+08:00

haha ......... back from my trip ................. enjoy myself very much over there ...........
Never spend so much ........ just used most of the energy ..............

Hope everyone enjoy during the trip .............. =p

Photo will be update soon ........ haha i got alot photo on hand haven update =p .........

2009-04-01T09:53:00.013+08:00

haha ...... done a family stick for cssc ...........

haha ...... wonder wat is cssc ???
shall not tell u guys .........

going to update some photo taken during the chalet ....... but only limited ........ haha too busy in eating than photo taking ......

enjoy the 3 days with them ........ end off with fight and injury here and there ........ haha ..... but still fun .................

looking forward for my trip ........ =p

btw ..... my house no internet connection ..... blog will be dead for sometime ........ haha
this entry also is updated at my work place .......

anyway ... i have been working in SPH for a month ......... sometime stress .... sometime fun ........

overall still ok ........ thx to bb encouraging mi all along

2009-03-15T22:16:00.017+08:00

yoz have been missing for few week ..... haha now update everything =p

got a job at SPH ..... working with sweetie sharon

her desk is so messy ... but .... with mi around ...... more worse wahahahaha

One thick file to read ......

after work on friday ..... when IT fair with sharon,Lex and zhi wei ..... dinner is steamboat wor .....

haha ....
this pic can show the meaning le wor .... no need to say everything out =p

went for his competition ..... haha took some photo

2009-03-02T22:56:00.006+08:00

are you able to fix the broken heart of mine
and make mi fall in love again

will u hold on mi and never let mi go

but ........ it hold mi back again
my tear have dry up ....... and i have no energy and strength to withstand any injury ......

i don want to get hurt anymore ..... are u able to do that

but i got no confidence that u wont hurt mi .......
and i feel that if she turn back to u .... u will just say good bye to mi

2009-03-01T23:15:00.005+08:00

Define Love
Define relationship

haha ..... i'm always envy my fren about their relationship .....
wat about mi ??
i don know .....

to accept or not ........
is still confusing ...... i'm so scare history repeat .......
i got no confident that this one will turn out different .......

Let share some quote that i find it quite true

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop

We always ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us

You can't buy love, but you can pay heavily for it

Where there is love, there is pain

When you're in love and you get hurt, it's like a cut, it will heal with time but the scars will never fade

haha suddenly xin suan suan de ..... don know wat should i do .....
=p

2009-02-23T22:24:00.008+08:00

Vday .... haha ..... was spend with mum and sis .... the meal was treated by my mum .... wooo haha

haha forget when was it ...... accompany mum go bugis pray .... think wat borrow ang bao day ........

is SUPER crowded lor ..... and the side is so dangerous ...... fire in milo tin and so on ..... is so crowded until i cannot move lor ...... i still got to hide at a corner .... haha ... i hate to sweat .... =p

haha saw this cute little thingy ....... nv noe got this favour ..... haha wonder how it taste like =p

and on the 20 feb ...... meet up with the cs grp .....
first row
cai jun (alvin gf) , mi =p , hui xian (mummy)
second row
alvin (haha my 2nd maid) , melvin , jun xiang ,diwei (1st maid)

haha still the same .... funny and enjoying ......
ps la i where got half year nv meet u all le .... haha .... only di wei ..... i 1 year nv meet him liao haha .....

meet up soon .... haha
btw my 21 Bday is on april wor ....... u all got to prepare present liao .........
nvm don crack ur head to get wat present for mi ..... i will update wat i want haha ..... =p

so be regular to my blog ....

2009-02-18T22:46:00.012+08:00

It been very long nv update le ......... haha now super free ......... 3 days straight nv work ........ rot at home =p ...........

My 3 month of IAP finally end ......... the time at ServTouch wywy finally come to the end ........ knew some nice , funny and weird ppl there ...... haha

fun mixing with the fren there ....... i mention fren wor ........ haha

The cafe at my office ......... which we always have our late lunch ........
The same food that we almost eat for 3 month ..........

The ppl that always have lunch together ..........
where lame joke , weird action , gossip , tears and console all happen together with this group of ppl ..........

Haha the interns that join the company ....... all from NYP wor .....

Left to Right
Nic ( Last day not with us ), mi , Teck yong ( same sec sch ) , Joyce ( from ECC )

Haha .......... let intro some of them ...............

left to right
Joyce , cass and mi

THE GUYS

Left to Right
Chia Hsien , Salim and Jimmy

haha ......... and the secret ........... the thing we normally do when free .........

Took photo of them ........ without letting them notices ........ =p

Haha during raining day ............... took a ride from chia hsien ........

Finally the group photo ............

The days working wasn't that good ......... but with them around ......... it become fun ..........
Supporting , helping , concern and console each other ................ make the place feel warmth again .....

Thx for the 3 month ........... with their accompany ......... we gone thru the IAP smoothly .......

=p

2009-01-08T10:16:00.002+08:00

hmmm

life getting better at work place ...... boss nv talk to mi anymore ...... he just put mi under my sup .... so he will be in-charge of mi .......... so i just help 2 sup to do work ......... so no longer so stressful ........ and boss nv give mi anything to do liao ......... last time spam mi work like night won't fall ....... now don want give mi thing ....... i try so hard to stay awake at here ....... kind of tired .........

btw ........ i NOT ENOUGH money ............. 3 job liao lei .......... still not enough i really don noe wat i can do le ............

i decided and have discuss with mum ...... this year sept .... i will continue my study at Kaplan ....... i took up a part time course .......... so that i can work while study .............. is a 2 year course ........ i just need to endure for 2 year ............. life might get better ............ endure endure and endure .........

don know why ......... nowaday i'm super tired ............. even thou i got slp ........... i still very slpy ............ at work place ......... i almost fall aslp ........... even now i try so hard to stay awake ........ finding things to do ...............

seeing 2 guys beside mi playing game ......... make mi feel more like slping ......... oh ya ....... haha guys here are much more better life than gal .................. if anything go wrong .............. gals is always the one getting the scolding first ........
just like 2 days ago ............ 3 hr of meeting .......... nv stop scolding ..........

i guess i going to fall sick again ........ having cough non-stop and flu ........... plus body aching everywhere especially my shoulder ..........

hai .........

bored bored bored .........

2009-01-04T23:51:00.002+08:00

hmm this is the first post for 2009 ......

things still not smooth yet ........ guess this is the sign that my 2009 is not a smooth road ....

btw
sry for my dears and sweetie ........ for not sms or call u guys .......... is not that i don wanna talk to u guys ........... is just that my things is still not stable ......... alot things happen around mi ......... and i haven settle down yet ........ things isn't the same for mi anymore ........... i have a difficult road to move on .......... not just the things u guys able to see ...... i met problem and have difficultive in personal stuff and so on too ............. so i need to settle down first .........
so sry to make u guys feel that i don wanna talk ....... i just need some times to settle my stuff ..........

guess alot thing happen too sudden ......... now i understand the word STRESS ....... school is nth when it come to stress ........

home stuff work stuff .......... i could rate that home stuff is the number 1 stress thing in life ........ as for work ...... is the mangement of time and the line u choose .......... i guess design is not my path of road and it is not the line i want ..........

oh ya ........ btw ...... i going to work straight 7 days a week ....... till my IAP end ...........
so i will be tired and hot temper for this few week ......... so if i offend anyone is anyway ....... i apologise first =p ..........

got to rest and slp ......... tml going for war in few hr time ............

2008-12-31T18:52:00.002+08:00

=p ....... i will smile no matter wat happen ..........

guess thing won't go back normal ..........

nvm ....... everything will be past ......... let it be .............

the impression given is already fix ........ i won't try to change or affect .......... i will let it be since i'm the one give it .......... there no right or wrong in this situation ............ so no one is going to be blame or wat .......... i'm going to step out of it .......... move away from it .........
i'm not trying to run away from problem but just don want more problem ...........

guess thing isn't as smoothly as everyone think ......... my fate will be fix on friday ........ i will accept it since i'm the one mess it ..............

i'm really sorry that i caused problem for other and mess things out for other no matter is work place or private

guess i'm this way ..... anyway this is not the first time ........ get affected by mi is not worth it ....... the best way is get away from mi ............ =p

2008-12-26T13:24:00.002+08:00

hi guys ...... sry for making u guys worry abt mi ....... i guess i'm better ........ just need a month to recover back to normal

I'm better than yest ........ thx for all the concern .........
haha my xmas almost need to spend in hospital .......

oh ya thx kim , daniel and mahes for traveling down to my work place and send mi home .........

oh ya for lizhi , i'm sry for all this stuff happen ............ and thx for helping mi with my work

oh ya ernest also came down with a xmas card ........ is all sweet ...... thx wor .......

for my dears and sweeties
really no need to worry so much for mi ...... i'm old enough to look after myself and think wat is the best for mi. So no need to get worry or angry abt wat i have done ........ i noe there is some misunderstanding among us ............ i guess we won't get affected becoz of it k ............ thx for all the care and concern u all given mi .......... really touch in wat u all done .... love u all =p ....... hope nth will affect us ..........

guess i need to rest again ....... in pain again ........
i shall update when i'm free

2008-11-29T22:49:00.002+08:00

finally ........ i back updating my blog ............. my blog is been monitor by someone ........... hai ....... cannot blog this and that ............

never mind

today went out with mum and sis to china town......... actually not going becoz too tired but need accompany mum ......... mum need to do check-up ........... hai hao ....... things getting better ...... if not i sure worry this and that ......... now can at least fang xin abit .........

after few hour of check-up ......... i almost fall asleep during that ........ we went to eat the porride ...... haha nice nice ............... we around china town ........ only mum bought some clothes .......... later on .......... sis went work ....... while we head to bugis ........... AND continue shopping .......... again ........ is mum bought clothes ...........

our dinner ........ haha la mian ........... =p .......... i wanna eat pasta but mum don want ......
haha ....... i bought donuts .......... 12 of it ......... now only left less than 5 ...... opps ......... haha ....... no wonder i so fat ...........

i'm sure i will slim down ......... haha have been working 3 job ........ 2 part time and 1 attachment ....... haha next month i will be rich .......... haha ............

need to sleep le .......... tml working .........
hai ........ sometime think that if there nothing much in the family for mi to worry or nothing happen ........... i think i won't be working like this and i will like other teenagers enjoying life .......

anyway there nothing i can choose .......... only face it or run away from it ........ =p

2008-11-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

FYP ended .......... misses everyone that enter my life ............

the 12 week of FYP ......... the joys that i go thru ........

starting by entering s442

my sup was see toh ........ no pic of him ..... he say he is cam shy so don wanna take pic ......
and i have 3 wonderful DTs .......... which bond with us pretty well ......... we even have steamboat outing too ......... more outing pls .......

here the 3 Dts and mi

mi and jaz .......... we always have openly gals talk in the lab with other gals

hui qing and mi

kai yi and mi ...... haha she is always funny with her expression ....

the 2 Dts with mi and ryan

the only 2 ppl from e2 that same lab with mi
ryan and chang yuan

haha and wat ryan always do in lab
the pic can tell everything =p

chang yuan in beijing ..... so not much pic .......... haha

my new grp............. love them ........ opps ......... ernest not in it ..... =p
lisa , mi , kim and mahes

and soon ............ 3 guys become my grp mates ....... haha i'm no longer alone
ms kau 's grp join mi ......... haha
nic , yi chao and ryan

new fren that i make
liew xuan

haha another new fren too ........ "big banana"
eng hua .......... is the biggest size in clz ........ the worse is standing beside mi ........ =p

smallest size with the biggest size in lab ........
flor , mi and eng hua

our quietest guy in lab .......... ryan name him as Jam Hsiao ..... haha
hanson and mi

our lab ........ ah du ........... haha ......... the one that ppl used to tease him with mi
ben and mi

finally ........ force da jie to take photo with mi ......
my beloved da jie and mi

and the click that stay be my side .........
da jie , chang yuan and ryan

misses everyone ........ stay contact with mi pls .......... haha .............. tag my blog if free

and ........
last day of FYP is kim Bday ..........

went out with new ppl ...........
10 ppl on the car include driver ............. haha is over load lor .......... i was on mahes lap ........ haha no choice 10 ppl lei ......

kim , daniel (kim' bf) , kim's fren ( forget the name le ), alvin , alvin han , jia jun , li zi , ernest , mahes and mi ........ the 10 ppl ......... haha

dinner was on kim ......... thx wor ...........
and we went wala wala for drink ......
haha as usual i drink coke .......... but later on ........... mahes was high and force mi drink beer

to entertain her ........ i took a glass .......... but i also got drink kim drink .......... so when my face start to get hot ......... i stop ........ haha thx jia jun for drink all the beer that i need to drink ....... opps ....... haha the beer make u vomit =p ..............

anyway have fun on that day .........

but i still misses everyone ...........

FYP ended

2008-11-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

tml is the last day of my FYP ...............
this mean everyone will go their own way .............. and have their own life ..........

as for mi ......... i like a lost kid ........ i don know wat is the right path i moving on ........
FYP ending ........ this mean that everything will be left behind and move on as a blank piece of paper .................

hope she is right ......... put everything behind and move on ........... i will try to do it ...........

miss those who used to be close with mi ........... everything will remembered by mi .......... thx for those who used to stay by mi when i'm in deep shit or down ..........

and thx for those who stay with mi this 3 years ..............
and not forgetting my FYP lab mates and DTs ........... that stay with mi for the 12 weeks .........
thx everyone that enter my life =p ........... u will nv be forgotten .......... =p

it will be hard to stay contact when everyone go different way ............ and i know i have a problem too (bad habit) .............

i'm attach to ServTouch wywy ........ don know wat lai de ....... haha ........ lucky is near my house ........ so don need spent so much on travel ......... haha and is around half an hour from my house to my work place ............ and is like 5 station away from mine .........

pay wasn't good ....... so still taking few part time job ..........
tiring ...........

btw got to edit my aes ........... got to faster do ......... i wanna sleep ........ abit tired .........

cheer up gal ....... don be affected by other ....... and don be so senitive by wat other have said ....... believe wat u see and wat ur hearts tell u .........

2008-11-18T19:41:00.002+08:00

been a week nv update my blog .........
i know someone will read ............ so don wanna blog ........ as i know i cannot control and blog watever shit happen ..........
anyway i have been working weekday too so abit tired to update too

if wanna know wat happen to mi .... can ask mi personally ...... haha depend whether i wanna say mah .....=p

basically my life wasn't that good ........ thing getting worse ......... my life changing .........

yest i done bad things ..............
i know i couldn't throw my temper at u ........... i just too angry ........ that why i kick u and walk off .........
everyone have their limit .......... and that matter really go over my limit ..........
i don wish to blow up the matter ............ but i just cannot control ...................
hai ............ don know wat going on with mi now .........

anyway FYP ending soon ........... mean leaving alot thing behind and move on to ur life ...........
tml i will know where my attachment place .................

hope thing go better

2008-11-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

omg omg omg .......
i'm going to reach my limit ................... damn tired

have been late for school almost a month .............. couldn't wake up on time ........ damn it .......
now in school .... walk abit ....... the leg jiu like jelly le .......... got one time almost fall from the stair ........ lucky got lisa they all ..........

i could say having school and taking 2 part time job at the same time is SUPER tiring ..........
don try it if u are not in need of money ............

my family problem getting more and more worse ............. maybe giving up something ......... it might turn better .............. ?? .......... maybe ............

thing doesn't turn good after he left us ............ leaving alot shit stuff to us ........... i try to contact him .......... try to look around the place where ppl say he appear ............ but still couldn't find him ...........

i did wat i can ........... i don know when i going to knock off .......... sick for few day le ............. took medicine still like the same ........... now still need to look after 2 sick ppl .......... sick ppl looking after 2 sick ppl ........... haha

haha now the whole family is working ............ include my sis .......... she working at long john ....... haha thx to mi wor ..............

really bored to be alone working now .............. today got to stay till 1 plus ........... tired tired .........

thx those ppl who chat with mi in msn when i'm working ........... haha sometime really bored when working alone ............

waiting for the time to pass ...............

2008-11-10T22:58:00.006+08:00

today ............. really save my transport to school ........

all thx to my sweetie mahes ............
haha ........ thx for sending mi to school with ur rented car ..............
haha really have fun with u guys ..................

here some pic

haha ......... with car ......... of coz we will have fun ..........
first we went to J8 to have my breakfast cum lunch ............
later on went over to kovan to tour around ............

here mi and mahes ....... haha in the front seat ......... as i don want to be hurt by ernest ..........

haha ......... my new grp of fren ........ fun and lovely ........ even thou we fight alot ........ but all are just for fun .......... i know everyone of us love each other ........... especially our auntie lisa =p .... love us so much .............. haha

our grp photo in the car ........ taken by my hp ...... as we too excited all forgot to bring cam along for the tour .........

we also went to puggol end to relax and chit chat ...........

after a "long tour" finally mahes need to return the car ..........
so we all went back to school .......... really enjoy been with them .........

today receive new task ........
AES , report and poster to be done this week ..........
and presentation will be next week wed to thur for all ........ so this 3 day will be in formal wear ......

and i got more worse after a long day .........
tot ate the medicine will be fine ......... who know i got worse .........

and thx zhi wei kor kor for sending mi home .......

here the pic of him driving ........... he so shy don want look at my cam ..........

sotong .......... are u envy of him driving mi home ............
haha ......... not much ppl have the chance to sit at his car de wor .............

anyway thx zi wen for offering to drive mi home too ........ but u are too late ....... haha zhi wei kor kor come first ............

wonder why suddenly ppl offering to send mi home .......

haha becoz fever again ............

when see doctor ......... got MC again ..........
but my lappy spoil cannot do work ........ so got MC also no use ........ need go school use the com ...... in order to complete my work on time .............

here my weird medicine ..........

ps ronie ......... fall sick le ......... so unable to work so much ............
last week over work myself le ..........
so this week i need to rest .....
thx for understanding ...........

anyway i getting fatter ........... i need go on diet and exercise ........ my tummy getting bigger .......
my mum making mi more sad ......... she say i look like pregnant for 3 month ...... so sad

sotong let go exercise ........
mahes let go play tennis ...........
omg omg omg ............ i need to do alot stuff ......

after FYP ........... i will update all the pic taken ........ this show wat i have done during my FYP ....... haha ........
lots of photo to upload ......
hehe .... =p

2008-11-07T21:29:00.002+08:00

hai ............... working now ............... super tired ......... at this time ...... i still HAVEN TaKE my dinner .....
ronie .... faster get mi dinner .......
today work ALONE again ........ damn sian de lor ........
still don wanna employ more ppl ........... always mi working night alone ........

today really damn tired .......
even thought we nv go for FYP ....... but we need to attend a seminar at suntec which i was force by mr kwan ..............
mi , lisa ,ernest and mahes catch a movie later on ......... The Coffin ........ so funny ...... there are some shocking part ...... i got shock and hit my head on ernest shoulder damn pain ........ haha i think i hit onto it like 4 to 5 time ........ and that mahes ....... as long as is she is scare or shock .... she will whack mi ........ so guy if watching horror movie remember don sit beside mahes ..........

anyway i enjoy myself today even though i'm very stress ...........

feel so sleepy and tired ....... been working since last sat ........ going to a week without off from sch and work ..........

working now ...... alone ......... tired and sleepy

2008-11-05T23:08:00.001+08:00

now blogging at my work ...... damn bored ....... raining .... so not much ppl ............. and vic say he not feeling well ....... SO i'm working alone managing the shop alone ......... wth .....

haha alone got advantage ..... haha i on a tv watch channel 8 ....... wahahaha ....... and start blogging while no customer ...... haha ...... BUT ......... i wanna pee ......... no one take over ........ wth .......... waiting for ronie to come ......

i don noe when i reach my limit ........ now i damn tired ....... sleepy ....... and stress for my project ...... i only left 1 day to do my project .......... that is tml ...... becoz of mr thwan ....... i need to go sunte to attend a confer with lisa , mahes and ernest on friday................ wth ............ make mi waste one day ......... and we are excuse from FYP becoz is 11 to 6 ........ haha they say half way can run but don noe true or not ............... haha anyway my FYP left setting up blog(open source plus cannot use blogger ) my target is to complete my project by tml ....... jia you wor ........

today end work at 1230pm ...... damn tired lei ......... and my right shoulder / arm start to kill mi again ........ damn pain .......... suffering like hell now .........

hai ........ i wanna go home slp ..........
miss my bed , my mum ( haha very long nv talk le ) , my TV ( so long nv watch) .........
is like start from sat till now
as i only able to reach home by 1 =p so sad

tired ....... and i going to pee soon ...... the more i type the more i wanna pee ......

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2008-11-05T11:15:00.001+08:00

haha ..... nowaday nv update .......

last month is becoz of something something else ...... wasn't in the mood to update ......

now is taking 2 part time job and a full time student =( ....... there no extra time for mi to blog

tired and tired ....... shoulder pain like suffering in hell ........

1 part time job is promoter ...... another one is weekday job work till 1 am ...... =(
and i have not seen my mum for the pass few days ....... but yest she is so sweet to drop by my work place to visit mi ........ haha

money money money ......... haha

BUT school is stressful too ............ see toh is stressing mi abt the deadline and keep saying not enough not enough ...... i wonder wat is enough .........
i need to edit and add things in ......... and i left only 2 days to do it ............
feel so tired ....... php and open source is not the thing i learn ............... yet i have to do it .........
btw haha ...... i got 3 more group mate liao ........ ryan , nic and yi chao join see toh le ...... haha ..... let u all taste the stress i have been facing it ............

and ....

i'm fat right now ....... damn it ..... alot pant i cannot wear ....... sotong let go exerise ..... let play batminton ......

...... catching some nap ..........
don noe when my next enties ....... see i so good ..... sotong i blog for u lei .....
see ya

2008-10-28T22:45:00.003+08:00

today ..... kind of bad mood ......... been affected by some ppl .........
those sms ..........

everyone find mi weird.......... as i din talk much ......... anywhere thx for the concern ............
i wasn't smiling but i'm fine ......... thx

hai .......... my project ............ only left abt 8 days ............ rushing and rushing ......... but biggest problem is i'm not good in php ........ omg ........ i keep try this and that .......... lucky got some guy help ........ opps haha i still don know his name .......... anyway he just a php pro ............ lucky =p

nowaday must camp at my lab rushing the work .......... hopefully i can finish it by this week so next week i just need to edit and not rush to make the program working ...........

btw thx zi wen for sending mi home again ....... haha ps make u wait for half an hour =p

tml rushing work again ........
jia you ...........

2008-10-28T11:14:00.006+08:00

i know u are reading .... and i purposely post it to let u read .......

i have my right to make decision ..... i know wat i don want ........ u can't force or make mi change my mind ..........

so wat i go out with him ....... it my decision ........ i'm not belong to u ......... i can be whoever i want ....... and this doesn't not concern abt u ...........

u don have the need to ask around whether i'm online or not or this or that .......
YES ... i block u in msn ...... i don wanna u to talk to mi so much ...... asking so much question ......
u think u are not doing all this ...... but u are making mi feel SO uncomfortable for all the act or even just talking ....... and i just wanna u out of my life that it ........ don ask stupid question ......

so wat i fall for other or not ....... it doesn't concern u too ........
everything is over ....... we are over ....... and there won't be chance of getting tgt again ...... i mean it ......

i don care wat other think of mi ....... and u no need act as u are so pity ........
wat had happen for the past 2 year ..... u know more than other .......
i know both party is in the fault .......... so no point hanging on something that won't happen anymore ............ or blaming other party for anything

and no point losing ur temper to mi ........ i not scare anymore ....... and i won't give in anymore ......

i am who i am ...... i won't change for anyone .............
this is my final decision ......
and will be the only decision .......

My blog wasn't popular ...... so u no need to worry ppl viewing it ...... as i know ...... no one bother to read my blog .........

PLS don bother to sms/ call mi ........ i won't answer any of ur question ....... everything u want to know is all in the post

2008-10-27T21:58:00.000+08:00

bored bored bored .................
today holiday ....... done nth at all ..........
went out with jx to buy esther's daughter Bday present ........... walk around compass point and have light snack .................
and accompany my mum to tm walk walk .............

oh ya ......... now love to play with pic and photo ......... haha ..........

now update the photo/ pic of wat i have done .......

haha i'm on tv .......... opps ........ this is how i gain weight ........ helping my labmates to eat unfinish food .........

haha .... this is my wonderful labmates ....... oh ya ...... some is neighbour ........

my lovely friend cum family .... =p

my bestie ....... sweetie

sweetie .......... miss her too

sis and mi ........... =p

funny playing with pic ..............

going to have supper later ................ abit tired ......... lazy to go ............
tml need go sch rush work ............. my target is to complete within this week

haha ..... jia you

gosh .....

2008-10-25T21:24:00.003+08:00

finally yest seetoh came to meet mi ........ omg ......... he add on my work ......... damn stress ........ got to finish it in a very short period ........ omg omg omg .........

we left 4 week of fyp ......... 2 week of doing project, 1 week to prepare & wrap up and 1 week of presentation ............. mean doing of project i only left 9 days ....... omg omg omg ........

waste 3 week in sch slacking .........

haha if u ask mi to write a report of wat i have been doing ..... u will get shock .......

the movie i watched
mirror
disturbia
PS. i love you
27 dresses
The girl next door
Meet dave
Never been kiss
Money not enough 1 & 2
Made of honor
10 000 BC

haha ....... hmm wat else i done ......

oh i still join them smoking break ........ i'm a second hand smoker liao

btw we go botak jones to have our lunch ...... and we went 2.5 hr for our lunch ..... haha
photo will be update when i recieve it ..... haha need to edit becoz too much of my ugly pic ......

btw i wanna watch the movie sing to dawn and The coffin ....... beng leong faster ask mi for movie ....... =p

oh ya ....... i got FATTER within few week .........
omg omg omg ......... i want my flat tummy back ......... i gain 3 kg lei ......... 1.5 week nia ..... i jiu gain 3 kg ..........

haha ........ after fyp ......... don noe wat size i become liao ........ and don noe wat my weight too ...... i don want be fat pig =( ........

i must go on "see food" diet ......... bcoz now i see food i jiu want eat ......... omg omg omg

2008-10-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

hmmm this will be a very long post ...... lot of thingy in my mind .........
don even wanna start from where ........

oh ya ...... feeling excited abt something ........ haha ....... mi and mahes sending parcel over to France for ting yu and phillp .......... sending some gift and our funny lab pic ........ and not forgetting some dry food for their winter time ........ the funny time is they only request us to send maggie curry favour ....... haha

our lab really don noe how to say le ....... haha ...... everyone got closer ....... now we even go out eat tgt during our lunch ............ tml have date with them too ......... botak jones ........... haha ...... everyday we having picnic in lab and enjoy movie tgt .......... =p ......... and gossiping session too

btw now ......... getting more dislike guy ........

feel most of the guy are damn ass ....... can even say jian ren ...........
know something that hurt ppl alot ........ even thought is not happen to mi ....... but i can feel the pain and sorrow within mi ........
feel like slapping that guy ............ few slap is not enough .........
u are just a ass that destroy other ppl life ........... get off from the world ........ u are not welcome to this human world ........... becoz u are worse than a beast ............ if i got any power ....... i sure make u disappear in the world ...........
disappear is too nice for u le ....... i think make u suffer ......... make u gone thru wat u make other go thru those pain and sorrow .......... and make u face it alone ...............

kind of disappointed with those guys ........ so far all the guys i knew wasn't that nice and good ...... they weren't the perfect and idea guys that all gals looking for ........

i'm not looking for those guys .......... it super rare to have those guys in the world .........
all i need is a guy that able to look after mi concern mi and not betray ............ but too bad ...... i wasn't that lucky to meet one ...........

still got alot more to say ........
but ............ hai ............

btw ps zi wen .......... wasn't in the mood of waiting for ppl ......... so left without u ..........

not feeling well too ........
going rest soon .......

2008-10-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

yest not feeling well ....... guess my body getting weaker ........ keep feeling giddy and sleepy .........

oh ya sweet lisa gave mi a little gift to cheer mi up ...... thx sweetie

haha .... little pig ....... this will be at my desk ........ so cute .........

have a chatting session with zi wen yest night ........... know some stuff ......... haha ........ too bad ...... is to late .... =p ............ btw thx for the snack ...... =p

today ryan and da jie nv come school .......... left mi alone ......... haha ........ but i had fun with the rest ......

btw thx yi chao for the breakfast treat ........... haha abit pah sei lei ........ first time eat breakfast with u ...... u jiu treat mi .......... i just wanna pay u back still kanna say by u .......... i not close with u mah ....... that why don want u treat ...........

haha today had gossiping session with the galz ............ opps ........ haha there 2 guy too .........

AND gong xi sab .......... getting married this sunday ........... sry wouldn't attend .... got to work ...... so nice meeting the right one and get settle down ........ so envy

gotta rest .......
not feeling well ........

2008-10-21T23:25:00.004+08:00

mix feeling .............

guess ryan is right ........ no point mind all the stuff ......... cry only make myself worse ......... sharing with other is to lesser the pain within mi .........

haha guess i able to speak up and put everything behind le ..........

haha waiting for that new target =p ........ opps haha

guess ......... i got a crush on someone else =p .......... not going to say until i figure out the truth feeling ......... till now i don noe is it crush or wat ...........

hmmm mix feeling .............

2008-10-20T22:54:00.004+08:00

today my lab was quite happening .....
we are having lot of food and fun .......

let the pic talk

bubble tea for end of day

bought by mi

nic treat =p but wrong favour

lisa bake oreo cheese cake for us .... so sweet ....

jaz bought this ...... is nice

and few other food ..... too hungry so is abit lazy to take photo haha

oh ya ..... today is yi chao Bday ...... haha mango cake ...... love it ...... haha we got the honor to eat it too =p

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today no progress for my project

whole day have some gals talk ......... and finally i speak up to talk abt my past ........ and the stuff i gone thru ...........

finally have the courage to talk ..........

btw thx zi wen for sending mi home ....... today chest suddenly pain ........ don know is it gastric pain till the chest ........ but damn pain ........ thx zi wen for cab mi home .........

my gastric medicine finish le ........ at this hour ........ no strenght to walk to buy le .......... and at this hour where to buy ........ hopefully the pain go away ..........

PISSED

2008-10-19T23:49:00.004+08:00

just back from work and supper with fren ..........
and i hear some unpleasant stuff ........... my god-mother told mi all the stuff u said .............
i know u will be reading it .........

do u need to make up story to cover up all the stuff u done ....... or to bad mouth other to make urself more comfortable .................

i never say out the whole real and truth to them just to give u face ..........
but u done stuff that pissed mi ..........

pls grow up and think before u act ..............

2008-10-18T20:10:00.003+08:00

not a good day today ....................

wants to have a good rest for a day .............. but everything is spoil ................
siting at the sofa watching tv the whole day ............. is there any problem ???? lying on bed to rest for few hour ......... is this count as lazy ???

kanna nag for 4 hr straight .........

i did help u do housework ......... yet u complain so much ............. still run to my bro room complaining all the stuff to him ...............
hey i don think i in wrong lor .............. i did help with the housework and lesser ur burden .......... is just that i din do it immediately when u asked mi to do ............ but at least i did it ............. why must u still complain abt it ...........
did ur precious son help u with any stuff ..............
just becoz he gave u allowance every month u dore him the most ............ i did give u allowance last time ........... but now ........... i even have difficultive in supporting myself that why i nv give u allowance ..............
can u be more understanding ................

i know u sick ....... that why i give in to u watever u say .............. but pls don go over board .......

i just tired ............... tml i need to work too .............. i nv go out enjoying myself ...... i need work ........ why can't u understand ..............

i know alot thing happen recently .......... at the begining ......... i know i make a wrong step and decision ........... that caused all this ........... but i did told u abt it .......... now everything went differently ........... and everyone blame mi .............
have u asked mi ............. how i feel .................

i bet no one will understand how i feel ........... and no one will give a damn to it .........

2008-10-17T19:08:00.005+08:00

it doesn't matter how my days ............ everyday don seem good ........

today presentation ........ pretty good ......... got 7.5 /10 hai hao .......... able to answer all the question whether good or not i don noe ........

today skip all meal ........ hmm consider all meal ?? at least i drink milo and eat bread in the lab ...... milo is to kill my gastric pain ........
why skip meal ....... that my secret .......... btw i'm not on diet so don worry ................

no one at home ............ no dinner too ............. tml then eat ..........

feel like pouring all the unwanted stuff within mi ....... but i don wanna let everyone know ....... so keep it too ......

hai ............ sometime the 3 guys really make mi ( ~__~) ........ don noe how to describe ..........
forget it ......... i'm not angry abt it ........ just feel that would u mind spare a thought for mi before acting anything ............
everyone got problem bothering them ................

forget it
forget it
forget it

the more i think the worse i feel .........
am i that tao ren yan ..................

fine .................

2008-10-15T22:04:00.003+08:00

hmmm mum fall sick ........... so the housework will be waiting for mi to do liao ........ abit sian lei ........ but got to help ........ who ask mi is her daughter .........

presentation this 2 days ....... kind of nervous ........ becoz i don noe who going to ask mi question ....... hear that i will have to present to micheal cheong ........ sian ...........

today have a chat with joanne and sharon .......... abt the further studies of mi and sharon ......
joanne ask mi to talk to bro abt it ........ u should know his pattern more than mi ....... so not intend to tell him that ............
we will thinking abt private sch as both of our results is like shit ........ SIM , SMA , MDIS (ex lei) ...... this 3 that come to our mind ...........

are u surprise that i want to further my studies .......... haha becoz i used to hate studies ....... now i got no choice i need cert ............. i need high pay job to support the family ........ now i'm like a guy ....... supporting the family ...............

To my hubby
Next time u must work harder to support mi liao ....... i don wanna be so xin ku .........

haha ........

project project and project ............. really make mi mad ..........
just too tired to face everything ........

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project

2008-10-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

FYP for week 7 ...... done ...... waiting for presentation nia ......
happy =p ....... my forum is up ....... haha ....... with little help from seetho ....... =p

but then i wasn't that happy with my work ........ something bothering mi too ........
nvm .....

today kind of shock of da V temper ....... his image to mi was good temper and patience ........ but haha ......
after hearing it ........ feel kind of bad ....... becoz i was like that before too ........ 24 hr of sleep is not enough for mi ........ feeling tired and slpy for almost a month ........... due to taking up 3 part time job ......... feel so bad at that period ..........
btw ... ryan swee ...... NOT ALL GAL ARE BAD K ......... i wasn't as bad as u think it is ......... i know i wasn't good too ........ ass ......

after hearing lots of ppl talking abt their story .........
feel that relationship wasn't that sweet as it is .......... most of the feeling is hurt and pain ..........
when a relationship turn sour ........ partially is the enviornment and situation around ....... and the rest will lie on the both of them ..........
hmm should i say i experience more ........ i been thru a relationship that wasn't good ........ and see a 23 years of married family with 3 grown up kid broken ..........
it wasn't nice having to taste all this .........

maybe some disagree with mi .......... u might think that relationship is sweet when u meet the right one ........
but it not forever .......... friends and bf/gf or even husband nv stay with u forever ....... u nv know going to happen next .........
yes .... relationship is sweet when u meet the right one ......... but mine always nv go right ..........

shall update/ continue when i reach home ...... kind of tired ...... taking nap/ rest ........ btw need to pack up too ..... half an hour more .... home "sweet" home

2008-10-14T00:10:00.001+08:00

will u miss mi if i'm not around .....

haha ...... just to make mahes guilty for wat she done ...... i put it in my msn ........ haha it our secret ....

how i wish there someone misses mi these much ..... haha .........

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hmm have a calm face to face talk with mum .........
yest both of us just isn't calm enough to talk .......... and our mind isn't clear enough to think much futher than wat we tot of ..........

mi and sharon aka sotong wanna get degree tgt .........
oversea degree is much more faster ........... and we happily done some research ........... we wasn't alone aiming for something ........ as i have her with mi ....... and she have mi ...............
due to both of us wasn't that rich ........... we are restrict to alot stuff .......... but nth stop us from going on ...... we continue do research and try our luck ......

But things won't that smooth

told mum abt wat we going to do .........
unexpect .......... i got a "good" lecture from her .......... asking mi to look at the situation we are in ...... going oversea stuff is GONE .......... k it fine with mi ............
but she wasn't that supportive when bro took degree .........
she even say nasty stuff to mi .......... maybe i just too senitive ......... but it hurt alot ..........

this is the first time i talk to mum abt future and my aim .......... it so disappointed .......... it seem that no one really support in my decision ..........
make mi feel ____ hai .......... don really know i'm right or wrong ........... my decision is it the best for mi ......... don even noe who to seek for when i need advice ......... my family wasn't that supportive ..........

i know i always make wrong move and i try to follow wat u want le ........ now kind of lost when family does not support mi .........

after today talk ........ she wants mi to think again ........ not just follow other blindly ........
k i will reconsider again ........ and think everything again ..............

TIRED

2008-10-13T13:15:00.001+08:00

just woke up from my uncomfortable nap ........ no matter wat position i try to rest ...... it still uncomfortable ....... the worse it ...... my lab suppose to be warmth ...... but when i sleep ..... it get cold .........

now i still tired ..........

project ....... don noe how le ....... forum is up ....... and working ....... website .... lazy to edit le ....... and is working too ........

seetho nv come visit mi for a week plus plus le .......... i don noe wat to do for my project too ........
sleeping and watching movie is wat i'm doing for this few week ..........

moody ????

don noe ...... maybe i just too senitive ........
now couldn't accept the thing happen around mi ...... and i don wanna face the feeling within mi ......

sleeping and working is wat i'm doing ....... to make myself tired ..... i work ...... to keep myself busy ..... i work ......

am i able to take it ....... seriously i don noe ....... wait till the day i collapse ......

i'm seriously sick ...... mentally and not phyically ..........
don ask mi why .......... and don ask mi to say anything ....... i'm just sick ........
just let mi be till i recover by itself ........ when is the day ..... i don noe ?????

thinking make mi tired ........
still thinking of want i want ..... and wat i don want ........
still unable to find a answer for myself .........

still looking ......
till i find it ..........
but half way might give up wat i want ........ as i'm not determine to get wat i want .......... but wat i don want ......... trying not to get it ....... if by accident ......then too bad ...... cry lor ....... cry is wat i noe .........

2008-10-11T22:43:00.009+08:00

today ........... alone at home .........

slp till the afternoon ............

then wake up eat breakfast ............ haha my breakfast eat at 1 plus ......... so skip my lunch le ........

alone at home .......... bored still nothing do ......... guess wat i done ........bet u won't guess correct
give u few second to guess

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haha ...... the answer is ......... i do housework ............ mop the house .......... clean the living room ......... cook dinner for the family ........... wash the toilet ............

haha ......... why i do so ........... first lesser my mum burden ......... secondly i got nothing to do ......... third my mood wasn't good ........
keeping myself busy is a good way of forgetting stuff ..........

i don noe wat i want ..... but i noe wat i don want .....
how ????

the inner feeling is kept within mi ....... how i wish i can voice out like other ......
but then so wat if i voice out ......
i don noe wat i want .....
and i nv expect anything at all ........... and don need any return .......

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tml need to work ...... sian ...... 9pm then end ............ mum don want meet mi after work for dinner ........ sian ........
woodland go there very far meh .........
u go aunt hs nia ......

sian sian sian

Lab gathering ...

2008-10-11T18:44:00.000+08:00

last week ..... had steamboat with my lab mates and DT(s) .........

join them after work ...... thought i will be late ....... BUT ended ......... i'm second to reach ....... waited for the rest abt 1/2 hr .......... and is all the guy late lor ........... hmm but better than my clz de guy ..... they can make us wait for more than 1 hr ....... haha ........... after all ....... beng leong still the worse ....... make mi wait for almost 4 hr .........

see my patient so good .........

shall update the photo ......

first maria serving us

2nd maria serving us ......

haha din even know when this photo is been taken ....... oops ...... my ass is in the photo ....

the gals ..... mi and the 3 dt(s)

the group pic .....

sick

2008-10-09T10:30:00.001+08:00

having fyp now .... week 6 ending soon .......
this show that half of my fyp gone ..........

today ........... kind of not feeling well ............ thx reuben for the concern ....... take care too .....

having flu & headache & mense(2nd day is awful day) pain everywhere ........

don feel like eating ....... keep feeling tired and body aching everywhere ...............

i wanna slp ........

feel like lying on my bed .......... don move at all .............. so sick ............

don feel like coming to sch today ........ but seetho is back .......... he wanna see my work ........... BUT i done nth ..........

going off early today ???? see how ba ....... took my medicine ........ now feel so slpy .........

And the worse is
after breakfast ........ i feel vomiting .......

shall take a nap first ...... will update when i'm back home .........

oh ya ....... my lappy is alive ....... hmm consider half dead .......
thx guys for the cd and help ...........

ZzZ
zZz
zzz
ZZZ
slping

moody

2008-10-08T10:57:00.020+08:00

moody .......

my lappy is still sick .......... may not recover ......... might even die ..........

feel so helpless ............

wanna save my lappy ........ but ........i don noe how ............

sian ..........

lappy spoil already bad mood le ........

都是我不好

还记得分手的那天

我们都没有太多语言

我知道是我做的不够好

才会让你狠心要逃

有人说时间是良药

能把所有的伤都治好

一转眼窗外树叶都黄了

思念倔强的象海角

都是我不好都是我不好

给你的呵护太少太少

你知不知道你知不知道

你在我心里有多重要

都是我自找都是我自找

我自己推入沙漠荒岛

我要你知道我要你知道

我对你的爱无可救药

now then i noe how much my lappy worth to mi ......

alot stuff suddenly just pop out ........ i thought is over ........ but it came back in a night ........

my nightmare ...........

endless nightmare hunt mi again .........

arrrr ...... thing came back again and again ........

will time heal my pain .......

URGENT

2008-10-07T08:42:00.000+08:00

This POST will always be on the top until ....... my lappy is fine ..........

URGENT

anyone have Compaq recovery disc pls ..... contact mi ......

the best is u have this model

2008-10-03T22:31:00.007+08:00

lots of feeling right now ............
can't describe one by one .............

losing direction ............
losing the stand of mine .................

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haha .......... this 2 "love" letters ............. not for mi ............. so touch by the contents ..........
mahes wrote this for that cute couple .............. whom leaving s'pore at 9 oct and will be away for 3 month ..............
she wrote the true feeling of her toward them ............
i think she will miss them for the 3 month ..............

u nv know how much someone weight in ur heart until they are gone .............
after mahes pour out wat she feel ............
i wonder ............ if i gone for months or years .............. will frenz misses mi this much ........
haha ......... will i recieve those "love" letter ..................

haha .......
gal .........u dream too much ............. =p

haha .......... i'm still cannot take it ......... when ppl talk abt my past ........... pls stop all this .......
thx

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today ... seetho came ........ inform mi that ..... he will be away from monday to wednesday ....... should i be happy .......... i doubt so .........
he require mi to set up a forum in my website .......... omg omg omg ........ i nv learn before lor ...............
i know i slack 2 week liao ........... no need throw such a difficult job to mi ......... tired .... think of wat i need to do ........ i jiu sian liao ...............
anyway presentation is on week 7 for us ............
he say if i'm able to set up the forum ...... that will be great .......... are u trying to tell mi ........ i only got 1 week to do it ........ haha ........
btw ....... haha i no need do presentation slide ........ u should say early mah ........ haha not i no need use .............. is seetho doing for mi ....... woo ......... so nice ar ..........

cool

2008-10-02T23:24:00.004+08:00

today mood ............
abit .............

nvm .......... don wish to talk much abt it

after so much ppl talking abt their relationship ........ hearing different story and lots of stuff they encounter ............. am i consider lucky ......... i bet NO ...........
just abit foolish to believe the word forever .......... haha ...........
tired of all this ........ now believe in myself ............ no matter wat ........... as long as i stand by myself .......... i won't get hurt ............

and i really mind ppl asking abt my past ............... it just make mi think of it ............. even thought is over .......... and the feeling die off ............ but whenever u guy ask again ........... it make mi feel that with someone around is better than all alone ............

but i'm fine with all alone .......... going smoothy so far =p

learn that nv give ur hearts to other so easy

btw found sth cool ............
i think all guy love it ............. too bad this type of thing nv exist in the first place .........

for better view ... click image for larger pic

if u love flower exspecially sunflower ......
pls don do that to ur car ..........
i bet no gal dare to take a ride from u ...... =p

2008-10-01T22:34:00.006+08:00

sian sian sian ........

today mum go to 2nd aunt hs ..... leaving mi alone at home .......

lazy de mi .... slept till 1230 .............. wake up ............. hungry ............... cook maggie eat ...........

BUT

dinner ............. no maggie le ..............haha

went to the 24 hrs de coffee shopS haha ..... to buy my dinner ..............

see wat i eat ........... woo ..........

aw jian .........

and my fried fish soup ....... goes nice with rice ........

haha nv take photo of my rice ................. haha too hungry liao .......

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mood changed

looking at other who face the same matter as mi ..... maybe i feel better .............
but looking at other that is good .......... making mi feel like shit ...........

2008-09-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

today someone asked mi ........ am i still hanging on to my past .........
i like to answer no ............ which i used to answer ............ but her words enlighten mi ........ am i hanging or running away from the fact ...................

bet i'm running away ...........

2008-09-28T22:26:00.003+08:00

Wat makes you Go for it ,Wat makes you Stay, Wat makes you Leave

anyone have the power to replace the 'wat' with ur name ???
i bet no for the moment ...........
reading so many comic this few days ............. found a online free chinese comic ............ can read until no need slp le ...................

after reading ......... make mi think of so much ............
anyway something are meant to kept within itself ............ so not going to say anything ..............

but

我一但想起内心的事，我的心就很痛痛得我无法呼吸
我的记忆已经装满了悲伤和痛苦，想忘也忘不了。
真想对你说借我你的胸膛痛哭一次好吗。。。
但是我说不出，因为我知道你不属于我。。。
心中的感觉永远说不出。。。永远藏在我心底。。。竟是让我心如刀割，我也愿意。。。。

feeling hungry ........... stomach so noisy now ...............

next time shall update some comic which story is nice de ...... so that u all can try to read ...... oh ya ..... there are some M18 de too .............

2008-09-26T22:18:00.003+08:00

can u imagine ............. 8.30am to 6 pm ............ doing fyp ................

tired tired tired ........................
sleepy too .............. have not been sleeping well lately ............ the earliest time i slept is 2am .......... latest can be 4am ..................... but wake up at 730am .......
with the short hours of sleep .............. u think is enough ???? i bet no ............ haha if not i won't be sleeping in lab for more than a hours ....................

yest meet sotong and zhi wei kor for meal ............ zhi wei kor come my school work ........ haha so my lunch is on him ............. MAC ............... haha ............... after school meet sotong at amk ...........
btw zhi wei kor ........... don so blur liao ............. ur tools bag at my house ........... haha

let the photo speak for mi ............ dinner with sotong !!!!!

haha ........... the ice cream wafer is my favourite ............. anyway the food not bad ............. can go again .............. haha anyway we are member of that ...............

mood good or not ................
hmm think kept inside mi better ........ don noe how to describe it ............. nvm ............ i'm good actor liao ........... i can cover up the feeling from the appearance ............

tired ........ feel like sleeping

2008-09-25T00:28:00.002+08:00

hmm .......

today ......... mood is up and down ..............

happy for completing my part 1 project .............. but i still need to improve it ......... make it better ...... but sian ...........
anyway ...... my project cannot change that stupid template ............. so i redo ........... finally done ....... i used the whole afternoon ..... skipping breakfast and lunch for it .............. haha not i hardworking ............... is just that i having gastric pain .......... so don feel like eating ................

nowaday ........... keep having gastric pain ........... so idiotic ............. this time my weight sure drop again .............. sian ................

bad mood start ..............

i don care whether u read my blog or not .............. i just post watever i feel ............ not going to remove any stuff that i post ............

receive a call from my mum's fren ............... can u stop being kpo ............ i'm fine with the stupid attitude u use on mi ............ but not to my mum ................. don gossip about other ppl family affair can ................. i respect u as my mum's fren ......... so a smile to respond to u ........... if not i will respond u by asking u to SHUT UR BITCHY ASS ......................

u think ppl are not affected by wat u say ar ........... be more senitive can or not ............ pls la mature abit la ............. nothing is nice from wat u say lor .............u want to say to mi ...... k i'm fine ...... i take watever u say ............. don ever say anything to my mum ..............

i have master to take and accept all injury impact ............ as i'm totally damage .......... so more injury/hurt doesn't make any different ............... i'm able to smile even i'm totally damage ........... i won't tears as long as there ppl around mi ............ so i will disappoint u ......... u got no chance to see mi cry even thou i'm affected by all this ..................

i swear i will nv tears in front of anyone ................

a promise to myself ................. nv tears in front of anyone ............... stand firm and face everything .............

2008-09-23T22:29:00.002+08:00

damn tired ................ super tired ....................

oh ya ................. my hand hurting mi like hell .............. really pain ...............

today went school with a bad gastric .......... so da jie bought mi milo ............ thx ar ........... after drinking feel better ...............
but later on ......... pain again ............ but still bearable ..................

with the pain all over mi ..............i still go for napfa test ............

sit and reach = 42
sit up = 21
Inclined pull up = 10
shutter run = 12s
standing board jump = 140 ( omg fail )
2.4km = 1st round 00:41 ( happy =p)

due to fail one station .... so no point run for the 2.4 km ..........
haha .......

after that .......... don feel like saying liao ............

kk tired ............. going to rest ..........kk tml then update more

good nitx ........... my gal ..............

2008-09-22T16:30:00.000+08:00

tired ............ in school doing fyp ..............

seetoh gave mi assignment or i should say is a task to be done by the tues ......... been bored in lab .... so i done it within 2 hour ....... k ........ just a 5 pages master report that he want mi to do ....... so done it le .......... don feel like sending to him ........ i haven draw the database and all to him ........ i'm just tired in everything ........... trying to keep myself busy .........

but i'm really tired ........... i wouldn't sleep in the night .......... so scare that someone might knock my door when i'm asleep .......... and scare that when wake up .......... things going worse ............

i now there no point worry ............ so i did try to put it down .......... by talking and pouring out ........... it really feel better ........... but .......... i just don want him to noe so much ......... he noe too much le ............. but stupid mi ............ still tell him so much .............

trying to control my emotional .......... i did it ......... i'm able to be normal i guess ............ becoz now no one asking mi wat happen or are u sick and so on ...................

did i look weird and behavior weirdly .............. nvm ........... i guess _____ i make thru ......... and i really back to normal ......... and i able to have my meal properly ................. thx idiot that listen to my "story"

somehow .......... if u ask mi ......... am i fine ........ i think is just been extra ......... i noe is a concern ........ but then ....... i won't be able to recover so well ........... just be urself ......... the normal way that u talk or treat mi .......... it really make mi feel better ............. i don like pity view on mi ......... it make mi feel more worse ............. maybe ........u feel that i ignore the concern u given ........... no it not .......... it just that i don noe how to accept the concern u give ............ i'm used to carry all the burden given to mi alone .............. and i nv try to share or rely on fren ........... mostly i reply on ppl that is part of my life ............ but i broke my record ................

no motive deliver in this post .......... just wanna thx the idiot that share my stuff ............. even tho sometime he really pissed mi off .............. don do that le .......... if not i complain to ur wife ..........

now alot things to face ............ alot stuff to handle ............ don really noe wat i can do ............ and my hand ............ gods ........ don take it away from mi .......... i still need my right hand ...........

pain pain pain ..............
when having lunch ............ the right hand damn pain ............ don noe why ...............

oh ya ..... before i forget ...........

To yc , andy ,cy and ryan
STOP ALL UR RUBBISH ABT BEN ...................... u all noe that nothing between us ........... and stop imagine wat going on between us too .............i can tell u all now ................
THERE IS NOTHING HAPPEN BETWEEN 2 OF US .............. the rumor only make mi feel uncomfortable ...................
stop before i explode and kill u all .........

k ............ shall stop ............ feel so sleepy .............

be strong ....................... my gal

2008-09-20T18:23:00.003+08:00

yest ......... had dinner with beng leong ................ u make mi wait for "4 hour " lor ................. make mi lost " 20 kg" ............

eat new york new york ...........

too hungry ............. he nv let mi take photo of all food ..............

so sweet of sharon .................. visit mi in school before i head to wait for beng leong ..........
did some complaining to her abt our clz guy ............

actually mood turning better .................... but then spoil again ...............
this time is really hard for us le ...................
why can't everyone just support each other .......... rather than annoying the situation and blaming the fault ............. now is not the time to push the fault and waiting for someone to held the responability .................

u said that i'm immature to think ............ but are u mature ??? ............ blaming other of the stuff , pushing the fault and wait for someone to held the responability ............ i don feel any mature from u .............

at least i try to help ....... is only that it not within my control ..........
but i always try to be there when she scare and even be there when all this happen .............

but why can't anyone understand how i feel ...............
i really affected by this .............. i tried to smile when u all are around ........... this doesn't show that i don care all this ....... i jus don want ppl to worry abt mi .............. if u really want mi to show out how i feel ................. i don noe whether i'm able to take it .............

i have been standing firm on my feet ................ pls don push mi ............. i going to fall anytime .............

i noe is not right to write in the blog .............. but then ............ it the only way i can vent out ........... keep all of it is so painful ............ at least i pour out some .......... is lesser my pain within mi ...........

be strong ................. my gal

2008-09-17T23:26:00.002+08:00

sorry i scared u , da jie ......... i trying so hard to control le .............. yet sry ........ i noe u worry ......... anyway thx for been there .............

"never frown even when u are sad ..... becoz u nv know who is falling in love with ur smile"
thx for cheering mi up .......

but i know no one give a damn on my smile ........ and i don have the power to affect other .........

stop here le ........... damn it ........... feeling so lost and moodless

stay strong .................. my gal

2008-09-17T11:11:00.001+08:00

in school ........
trying to figure out my stuff ..... yet nth much i can solve ...... 3 section ..... only 1 is fully working ... the other 2 is like for show nia ...... not working de .....

tired of solving it .......... yet no choice ..... that my project ......... wanna ask ppl ......... but then who can i ask ........
nvm ........ try on my own ......... damn it ...... better work before i lost my patient and temper ........

nowaday mood not that good ....... things bothering mi ....... wat can i do ....... beside waiting for news and my days to pass ............. i don even noe wat to do next ........... things getting more worse .......... he lie to mi ....... i nv ask for anything ..... and nv compare with other before ...... nv require to change my life .......... but u are destroying everything of mine ......... my sec fren ........ all becoz of u ......... i don dare face them ........ NOW again .......... u have successfully destroy my life ............ wat going happen next ............ i don dare face it ............

sometime i even scare to go home ......... thinking wat will happen ....... will the ugly side of the things happen ......... i knew nth going be good happen ......... and i have metally prepare myself to face it ........ and i noe i going to face something heavy for mi ..........

things keep flashing in my mind ....... i noe at this point of time ....... thinking and worry does not help anything at all .......... but i can't control myself for doing that ......... if u ask mi not to worry or think ....... i think u are trying to be funny ........ if u are in my shoe ....... wat will u do .........

i going to break down soon ............ i'm trying so hard to withstand all this ................ trying to stay strong and firm ............ but i got no confident at all ........... thinking wat if i fall .......... i fail to stay strong ............. wat going to happen next ...............

feel that keep everything within myself is better .......... at least i won't bother anyone ......... telling ppl my stuff ........... haha ........... i don even noe wat the other party feel ......... irritating ? annoying ? disturbing ? troublesome ? ..........

haha ......... i nv noe ............

tired of everything ............ there are few fren asking mi ...... am i sick ......... ya ........... i'm metally sick and tired ..........

relying on ppl or have someone sharing the pain and burden with u.... really feel better than facing it all alone ............

how i wish i can put some pain to other to lesser the damage on mi

omg ....... my stomach .......... shhhhhhh ...... don make too much noise ........
2 more hours for lunch break ........

stay strong ............. my gal

2008-09-16T08:42:00.008+08:00

tired ............ in school doing fyp ..............

seetoh gave mi assignment or i should say is a task to be done by the tues ......... been bored in lab .... so i done it within 2 hour ....... k ........ just a 5 pages master report that he want mi to do ....... so done it le .......... don feel like sending to him ........ i haven draw the database and all to him ........ i'm just tired in everything ........... trying to keep myself busy .........

but i'm really tired ........... i wouldn't sleep in the night .......... so scare that someone might knock my door when i'm asleep .......... and scare that when wake up .......... things going worse ............

i now there no point worry ............ so i did try to put it down .......... by talking and pouring out ........... it really feel better ........... but .......... i just don want him to noe so much ......... he noe too much le ............. but stupid mi ............ still tell him so much .............

trying to control my emotional .......... i did it ......... i'm able to be normal i guess ............ becoz now no one asking mi wat happen or are u sick and so on ...................

did i look weird and behavior weirdy .............. nvm ........... i guess _____ i make thru ......... and i really back to normal ......... and i able to have my meal properly ................. thx idiot that listen to my "story"

somehow .......... if u ask mi ......... am i fine ........ i think is just been extra ......... i noe is a concern ........ but then ....... i won't be able to recover so well ........... just be urself ......... the normal way that u talk or treat mi .......... it really make mi feel better ............. i don like pity view on mi ......... it make mi feel more worse ............. maybe ........u feel that i ignore the concern u given ........... no it not .......... it just that i don noe how to accept the concern u give ............ i'm used to carry all the burden given to mi alone .............. and i nv try to share or rely on fren ........... mostly i reply on ppl that is part of my life ............ but i broke my record ................

no motive deliver in this post .......... just wanna thx the idiot that share my stuff ............. even tho sometime he really pissed mi off .............. don do that le .......... if not i complain to ur wife ..........

now alot things to face ............ alot stuff to handle ............ don really noe wat i can do ............ and my hand ............ gods ........ don take it away from mi .......... i still need my right hand ...........

pain pain pain ..............
when having lunch ............ the right hand damn pain ............ don noe why ...............

oh ya ..... before i forget ...........

To yc , andy ,cy and ryan
STOP ALL UR RUBBISH ABT BEN ...................... u all noe that nothing between us ........... and stop imagine wat going on between us too .............i can tell u all now ................
THERE IS NOTHING HAPPEN BETWEEN 2 OF US .............. the rumor only make mi feel uncomfortable ...................
stop before i explode and kill u all .........

k ............ shall stop ............ feel so sleepy .............

be strong ....................... my gal

2008-09-16T08:42:00.005+08:00

2008-09-16T08:42:00.004+08:00

2008-09-16T08:42:00.003+08:00

in school .............. doing Fyp ...............

nowaday ......... having doubt in believing the life i living on ............ all this really make mi feel like relying on others and not facing it all alone ............ damn it .............. thought i can make it ......... and walk thru all this by my own ........... but i lose to myself ............

facing the fact making me tired .............

today feel so sick .......... i think is metally sick ............. and sleepy bug hit on mi ............
rest first before i start anything .............. hopefully seetoh don check on mi today ............ i really like to have a break ............. i noe u don really check on mi ........... but today is different case ..........

thx .................... and thx someone for your concern ..... nan de u will concern mi

wanru in Hibernation mood

2008-09-14T20:19:00.004+08:00

pain pain and pain ...........

sat ............ sleeping sound and sweet ........... suddenly receive zhi wei kor aka dad call ........ ask mi meet sharon aka sotong .......... haha ........... reject the meeting .......... then sotong call mi ......... k lor ....... meet u all ............ haha ............. fall back to my bed after i hang the phone ...... oops ........ haha .... then dad call again ........say meet 2 at cs ......... k ..........as usual ........ lazy to move ......... ended sotong reach my house............borrow sock .......... haha ........... so here we go .............

meeting dad was late for half an hour ....... haha ....... he used to it waiting for his this 2 daughters ........ have my lunch at kfc ............ then went to dad house .......... haha his comic is more than mine by 4 times lor .............

went to downtown to play bowling ........... jx join after that .............. everyone laugh at mi sia ....... especially stupid jx ................ i don noe how to play mah ..........

let the pic tell u wat happen

first round ...... the poor mi

i improve ......... and top for the first 3 round

but ............. the overall for the second ............ =(

the last round .............

after that went to tm to eat ............
food wasn't nice ................ walk awhile .......... saw a grp of secondary guy ........... a guy trying to court a gal .......... bought balloons and flowers ....... haha ....... xiao didi so romancite wor ........ din get to see the whole scene ....... dad scold us kpo liao .............. haha

anyway reach home about 10.30 pm ............. stuck in traffic for an hour lor ............... if not can reach earlier ............... after playing ........ my shoulder getting more pain .......... going to lose an arm le .............

today is a slacking day ........... haha i GOT MY SPELLING CORRECT LEI HOR ........ idiot ass hole .............

haha

i sleep the whole day ............. wake up to eat and sleep again ..............

k .......shall end here .......... shoulder pain liao .......... and i it a LONG post wor ..........

good nite .............. get well soon ................ my gal

2008-09-12T23:17:00.004+08:00

today is a bad day ................ sick and tired of it ........... my day is spoils by u ......... ur call ......... really affect mi ............ i don noe how to say abt u and wat to say u ......... i noe that i can't say u ......... the respect is always need to be there and i noe the limit ..............but it just damn annoying ............ i respect u ........... and pls respect us ........... the problem u give and the pressure i face .......... is far too much for mi .............. but i accept it and face it ............ even thou i complain alot ............. but nv infront of u before ............ i noe i will hurt u .............. but then it hurt mi ............

in lab ......... hint someone not to too close with mi ......... does "it" understand ......... hopefully ......... i don mean anything ............... just feel very uncomfortable with ur act especially ur hand ............ pls know the limit ............... ask my sup to teach mi how to use dreamwaver ......... take 2 hours to learn .............. i just don wanna to rely too much on other ............. so hint "it" that i don need ur help yet ........ i will always try ............ i noe i'm weak in everything .......... and i need help .......... but doesn't mean that u can go overboard .............. maybe i'm senitive or wat ............. but i just don feel good .............. if u are closer to mi .............. i'm fine with all this ............... but u are just a lab mate of mine ............. whose i nv talk to before .............. yet acting this way ............

arrrr .............. shall stop this .............before i get too over ............

mum become a student again .............. forget which private sch le ................ now all students at home .............. and i got to held the responsibility of looking after the house le ............ haha after all this .......... i think i'm train to be a good wife that able to look after my family next time ....... wahahaha ......... even thoug i stress with all this ........... but i will always look at the bright side ......... and not letting anyone to worry abt mi ..............

=P

oh ya ............. hey guys ............. ex-cs staff ............ pls remember the friday dinner (19/9) ............... if nv recieve any news or msg ............. can sms mi or sotong aka sharon for more detail ............ time and location will be updated ............. thru sms , msn and my blog .................. don disappoint mi wor ............

i noe u guys will ask mi who going ........
so far
mi
sharon
mei lin
jx (no matter wat he must go)
kris
beng leong ( timing not confirm , due to don noe wat time booked out ....... will force him go .... )
dad aka zhi wei ( a must too)
hui chin ( link to dad)

hmmm realise that not all noe each other ......... but then haha i noe all ............. the rest PLS reply mi or sotong ................. thx ............... and try to make it

look forward to meet u guys ........

tired ..........

good night .................... my gal

2008-09-11T22:44:00.003+08:00

today eat and eat and eat ........ till late night then go home .............

quite tired ......... today ............. the shoulder pain again .............. lucky still bearable ........... and thx mahes always be there for mi ............. love u gal ........... heard story from other ......... feeling angry and sad at the same time ........ is abt the same that i encounter .............. anyway wish u good luck and remember to take care .......

omg ..... eat so much ....... i still not full ......... going to get fat after fyp ......... wahahaha ..........

today not feeling comfortable with someone("it") in lab ........ not very close with "it" .......... but "it" acting too close with mi ............. making mi feel so disgusting ......anyway thx for all the help ....... maybe "it" just friendly with all and no harm at all but ...... not all can take it ............. maybe i just senitive to it and the rumor spreading in the lab really make mi uncomfortable ........ just wanna to let all know ......... there nothing between us ............ and i don really feel comfortable with the action "it" show to mi ............

anyway ........ pls don misunderstand the relationship between us .......... there nth ........

tired .............
sleepy .............

good night ................ my gal

2008-09-10T23:27:00.004+08:00

not feeling good today ......... kind of feel so sick and pissed ......... maybe pms ????

don feel like saying wat happen to mi ......... just sick of everything ............ wonder why must it be mi ......... why must i face all this ...............

anyway don know wat happen to my right hand shoulder .......... after my nap .......... my shoulder have been hurting mi till now .......... the pain is abit unbearable ........ really very painful .......... eat pain killer ........ but only able to stop for few hour ......... omg ........ i cannot too rely on it ...... if not ..... will be like taking drug .............

everything don seem to be smooth in my life ........ why must i face up and down so many time .......... it like billion of times ......... must i grow up this way ???

haha nvm ......... anyway times fly fast .........

everything will be over ..................

默默在你的身后守侯的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂
我努力让你感动
在你眼中有多么笨拙的我
决不放弃追逐你的执着
只要你能再多些回应我
一个笑或点头全接受
能不能再靠近一点点
大声说出你所有感觉
别在紧紧关在只有自己的世界
温暖太阳为你迎接

能不能再靠近一点点
能不能再勇敢一点点
就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢
笑着和你说再见

good night ................... my gal

2008-09-09T21:30:00.003+08:00

today ............... super tired ............. don noe why .............. feeling sick rite now ...............

hmm today said something wrong ....... hopefully no offend ............ sorry wor denise ...........

after the breakfast ...went the lab ........ now is mahes ......... offending mi all the ways ........ k i noe u joking ............ but i don like to be tease this way ................ haha .......... and don ever say anything to any of my fren ......... remember especially him ......... k haha

having slight flu ................. hopefully sleep thru the night will get better ...........

and die ......... i haven done anything at all for my project ............... i still ask my sup to meet mi tml ........ haha serve mi right for kpo .......... k i'm really tired ..........

oh ya today is zi xuan's birthday ....... happy birthday ........

tired ........

good night ................... my gal

2008-09-09T00:36:00.002+08:00

waste a day again ......... today when school chat nia ........... keep away from the lab ......... until the dt say us ........ haha ........ nvm .......... i don think we care ...........

today suppose to do my web home page ....... but no idea ........ so stuck at there doing nth ............. only help other do flash ........ my project i do nth ......... omg .........

when i go the lab ........ i jiu feel like sleeping ............ quite tired ..........

alots things keeps coming my mind ......... wanna stop it ......... but still cannot control .......... nvm i think i just need time ............

tired tired tired ...........

time for bed ...........

good nitx ................. my gal

2008-09-06T23:23:00.003+08:00

hmm ...... sth bad happen today ........ feel so lost ........ wanna call ppl to pei mi .......... scroll my hp contacts ....... realize i got no one to call to ......................

suddenly recieve a msg ....... haha ............ thx ............he pei mi the whole day ...............
watch movie ....... haha still okay just $8 .......... after that ......... all is his treat ............. i choose he pay ...... wow ..... haha ......... had nacho and coke ....... hey mind u my saliva won't harm u k ..... haha .........

today eat and eat and eat ......... haha ............

haha ugly photo of him

haha thx for the dinner treat and so on ...............
too hungry ......... until forget to take photo of the food ..........
anyway ....... haha order quite alot .........

haha ....... able to forget abt the unhappy stuff for awhile .......

thx beng leong ....... next time sure is my treat ......... haha

good nite .................. my gal

2008-09-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

hmm ..... have been doing fyp for 4 days ........... finally got the assignment today .......... started doing ....... and i really feel the stress ........ can't ask help from other ...... but thx ben for concern and giving mi idea ...........

today half way of my fyp ......... went off ....... sth happen ....... really make mi down .......... disappointed , sad , worry ,angry ............ everything except happy .......... still manage to put smile on my face ............. after settle down the emotion feeling ....... feel abit more better ........... lucky still got ppl can make mi laugh ......... if not i keep thinking ........ don noe will break down mah ......... haha hai hao nv break down ..........

today have dinner with the rest .... to celebrate the ryan's birthday ...... very tired after the dinner ....... so went home ............

tired tired tired ............

update more another day

good nite ................ my gal

2008-09-01T16:46:00.006+08:00

in school ....... falling asleep soon .........

got my project today ....... designing a nyp web portal ......... haha ok is sth that i familar with ...... haha ...... there good and bad things .......... bad thing is the project is individual ....... good thing is my sup is helping mi too .... mean he will edit and add on some stuff for mi .........

been walking around in school .......... haha just to look for familar faces .......... most of them is in the same blk ........ so can say is we keep going out of the lab chatting .......... we are located level 3 , 4 , 5 ..... haha ....... and da jie is same as mi level 4 .........

haha ..........

damn bored ............ going fall asleep ...........

to be continue ........ when at home ..........

part 2

tired ........ after sch rain damn heavy ........ lucky the bus stop to my house got shelter .......... after dinner fall asleep ........ haha don noe why so tired ....... tml having fyp again .......... damn bored ........ have been walking around the sch only .........

tml going to do sth ...... is a must ........ if not will bored to death ....... anyway tml will bring more snack ..........

k tired le ........ going to sleep ........

good nite ....... my gal

2008-09-01T16:46:00.004+08:00

yoz .... i'm back ......mia for past few day ........ due to xin li bu shu fu ...... haha ...... must settle my mood down before everything ...... but things still bother mi ........ all i can is put aside .... but not yet put down ...... just wanna forget everything yet ......... i can't ...... bad things always stuck in the heart ..... nv be forgotten even tho is over ......

today first day of FYP ...... my supervisor is not around ...... so is a slacking day ..... damn wu liao ....
kanna separed from da jie .... sad sad ...... but lucky the clz still got ppl i know de ...... same lab with ryan and chang yuan ....... lucky gals still got lisa and mahes ....... so going toilet won't be loney le .... haha ......
doing project somehow like designing website and sth to do with php ..... omg ..... zhi wei kor kor u there .... haha save mi save mi .........

project is individual .... sian ...... they randomly choose de ..... haha lucky still same lab with them ..... lunch break same as ryan ...... haha nvm still can find da jie too .... becoz very near ...... and same blk as da jie ..... so can find her easiler .......

tml going to prepare lots of snacks .... in order to kill my time ...... haha thinking ..... wat shall i buy .......

jia you ............ my gal